(Written in February 2007)
Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling a little bit lost. I feel like I’ve been soldiering on through depression and headache, and today I feel enough better to what? try to do some “real” living for once? expand out of strict survival mode? Please help me.
Dear Jenny, there is no need to do anything different, no need to push yourself — except perhaps to get yourself to the studio — and it’s OK to sit up there and do nothing. We suspect that you are thinking that you “ought” to push yourself and we say NO, don’t do that. How about seeing how much you can enjoy today?
On that thought something painful comes up in my heart.
Yes. You were taught to believe that it was not OK to enjoy your life, and you’ve had too many experiences of starting to feel enjoyment and then being hurt by someone else — e.g. David V, your mother. Shelter your wounded heart, and gently let yourself enjoy small things — the chickadees, bringing in wood, etc. Remember that we love you. Remember that there is an enormous amount of love coming your way, that Spirit created you just as you are because you were needed to complete the universe. It’s OK to be you, JUST AS YOU ARE.