Category Archives: Depression

Struggle with Belief & Guidance

Posted on August 6, 2012 by jenny

(Written in May 2004) Struggle with belief: If I don’t do what someone wants, then I don’t care about her.  Mother drilled this belief into me.  So when my caring for someone and my need for autonomy* are in conflict … Continue reading →

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Political Blues and Creative Antidote

Posted on July 28, 2012 by jenny

I’ve been very unhappy and discouraged with the whole political scene, very angry with the fact that wealthy corporations have bought our government and can use it to further their selfish greed, instead of the government advancing the people’s welfare.  … Continue reading →

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Getting on Medication

Posted on July 7, 2012 by jenny

Because my parents were alcoholics, I was very opposed to the idea of medication.  Even when I finally had a good experience of how an anti-depressant could work, I continued to try to get off it.  Every time it was … Continue reading →

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Moon, Thrush, and Daffodil

Posted on June 20, 2012 by jenny

I’ve been hearing a thrush occasionally.  I rejoice that there’s still one in my woods.  We used to have lots of them, but their winter habitat (rainforest maybe?) is disappearing. Song of the Thrush Years ago, when I was in … Continue reading →

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Weight on my Heart

Posted on June 18, 2012 by jenny

I’ve been worried about Bella.  Her hind legs collapse under her now & then.  She did eat last night’s supper, but it’s been 3 days since I gave her any supplements.  She’s been drinking enormous amounts of water and peeing … Continue reading →

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Accepting Myself

Posted on June 4, 2012 by jenny

Went to Karen for help.  I’ve been really struggling with depression since I got so sick.  I had no energy for anything right after the training which was April 10.  It was good to see her.  I told her about … Continue reading →

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Tired and Discouraged

Posted on May 29, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Sunday evening.  I made a list of dances I’d like to do, and started a partial playlist on the computer.  With only a few, we started outside, doing Kos and Maize around the chimenea.  More people … Continue reading →

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Email to my Psychiatrist

Posted on May 25, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) I’m doing very badly. My sleep was broken last night.  This has been a pattern lately: I wake up at 4 or 5, go back to bed with a CD and do my breath exercise (which … Continue reading →

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No Expectations

Posted on April 9, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) It’s interesting. I’m feeling OK right now.  Yesterday I decided that I wasn’t going to do anything today, I also expected to feel horrible and figured I’d just soldier on.  This has happened other times when … Continue reading →

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Continued Struggle

Posted on April 7, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) Woke scared & sad.  It’s grey and it rained in the night so all the fall colors are glowing.  Yesterday was tough.  I cried so much with Karen that I got a headache.  Caryn would have … Continue reading →

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