Category Archives: Depression

My Life is Unmanagable, I Surrender

Posted on March 27, 2014 by jenny

Tired and slow.  A little discouraged.  I called both Eve and Barbara, and they didn’t call back.  No matter what I did: read, play solitaire, I could feel the sadness like a weight in my heart.  I did try to … Continue reading →

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Sad and Disappointed

Posted on March 24, 2014 by jenny

(There were no more “days of grace” after this journal entry.) The word “bleak” occurred to me this morning.  The first time in a month.  But I don’t think I’m bleak so much as sad and disappointed.  The weekend was … Continue reading →

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Finding Compassion

Posted on March 5, 2014 by jenny

Yesterday I talked to my friend Elizabeth.  I wrote down some of the things she said. Today I woke up feeling the usual misery.  I tried to bring compassion to it.  Then I thought, as Elizabeth said, that I was … Continue reading →

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Learning from Emmet Fox

Posted on January 29, 2014 by jenny

This was written at the end of December.  As I type it up, I see that the prayer at the end may also be part of the healing I experienced last week. I read some of the bits and pieces … Continue reading →

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AA and Emmet Fox

Posted on January 29, 2014 by jenny

I’ve just been typing up from my journal the days around Christmas that I spent with my brother Jack in Camden.  Jack is a recovering alcoholic, and I’ve been so inspired by how much he has changed, that I’ve been … Continue reading →

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Rocky Road

Posted on January 23, 2014 by jenny

I try to type up a journal entry about a month after it was written — unless I write something I want to share right away.  Normally, I wouldn’t post something like this, but I think it gives a very … Continue reading →

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Epiphany 2

Posted on January 21, 2014 by jenny

When I got to my therapist Karen I told her I was doing really well.  I told her about looking at my life as though God had designed it.  She said this time of feeling good was different, felt different … Continue reading →

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Ten Years — Forty Years

Posted on December 5, 2013 by jenny

I wrote a journal piece 10 years ago, on my effort to understand which stories work for me and which don’t.  I posted it as “Choices & Dysfunctional Beliefs.”  It’s painful to me that I’ve been struggling with PTSD for … Continue reading →

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Finding Support in Unlikely Places

Posted on November 20, 2013 by jenny

I’ve been sick for a couple of days.  Headache and ache all over.  This flu announced itself by two days of bottom of the pit depression.  Friends would try to cheer me up and I would just cry.  I spent … Continue reading →

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Still Struggling

Posted on November 12, 2013 by jenny

(Written in Hunger Mountain Co-op in Montpelier, before I see Karen for a therapy appointment) Still struggling with depression.  Mostly OK as I drove over, but it’s a grim grey day.  I realized I don’t see any people, I see … Continue reading →

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