Category Archives: Trauma

1995: The Trauma of “Don’t think you’re so great”

Posted on September 2, 2023 by jenny

In this passage I see that I am essentially a creative person, but I’ve never been able to actualize more than a small percentage of what I was capable of. The reason is because of my mother constantly telling me … Continue reading →

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1995: Biological Foundation for Mood Disorders

Posted on August 30, 2023 by jenny

I wish I had named the book and the author.  I find it fascinating that it took so long for me to find out that I was dealing with trauma, that my reaction to the noise of the planes was … Continue reading →

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1995: “Truth” and “Self”

Posted on August 25, 2023 by jenny

This is was written during the time when I was having a bad time with the noise of small planes, especially the ones that towed gliders up from the Franconia Airport. I wrote this after a particularly bad day. I’m … Continue reading →

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1995: Self-Mutilation

Posted on August 23, 2023 by jenny

So amazing to read this. I started cutting myself in California when a boyfriend left me for someone else. I did it for a number of years in my 20’s, and stopped, interestingly, when my brother said “Buddha says ‘life … Continue reading →

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1995: “The Whole Thing”

Posted on July 30, 2023 by jenny

SUNDAY, JULY 30, 1995    Sometime in the early ’90s I followed the program described in Julia Cameron’s book The Artist’s Way. “Morning pages” is one of the exercises in Julia Cameron’s program. Nika is the Artist part of me, I … Continue reading →

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1995: Journey Into Courage Video and Fear about Mom

Posted on July 29, 2023 by jenny

After the first showing of the movie about Journey Into Courage, I realized that my siblings’ names were listed among the contributors to making the video.  I worried about mother finding out.  At this point I still didn’t know about … Continue reading →

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1995: Glider Hatred

Posted on July 27, 2023 by jenny

During the years from 1984 to 1997 I suffered from the noise of small planes from a nearby airport. The worst were the ones that towed the gliders because it went on so long. I wrote this in my journal … Continue reading →

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Dialogue between Wounded and Feisty

Posted on June 23, 2023 by jenny

from my journal for Thursday, June 22 Dear Inner Teacher, I desperately need some help. Dear Jenny, you are so hard on yourself.  You are harder on yourself than you are on anyone else.  And you judge yourself without mercy.  … Continue reading →

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What’s Holding Me Back?

Posted on June 22, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for Monday, June 19 I tried to talk to the part that’s making me so scared.  I got little bits of dialogue before I actually sat down to write it. Me:  how old are you? Part:  Twelve … Continue reading →

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“Bombed-out Village,” reprise

Posted on May 29, 2023 by jenny

Originally posted in November 2018 Wednesday, November 21, 2018 Thinking about talking with Erica about starting to tolerate — and even enjoy — the ordinary. For most of my life I was in too much psychic pain, I needed something … Continue reading →

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