Category Archives: Trauma

The Traumatized Baby

Posted on July 11, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) In a session of the “Wave Work” at Kripalu: there was a confusing struggle with my body’s tendency to cramp up (esp left hand) and kick, shake, jump.  Finally I let it shrivel up into a … Continue reading →

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PTSD

Posted on June 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) What’s coming up is how sad and frustrated I feel that I haven’t been able to live up to my own standards of responsibility and integrity.  I feel very sad that I had to leave Kayla … Continue reading →

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Parts of Self-portrait

Posted on June 9, 2010 by jenny

Since it’s hard to see the details of the self-portrait, I took some closeups. This piece shows the area around my heart.  Words are “SHREDDED” and “TORN” This part represents my sexuality.  The word is “DESTROYED”.  There are pictures of … Continue reading →

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Self-portrait

Posted on June 7, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2006) Saw Lore yesterday.  I wanted to do a “self-portrait” like we had done at Woman’s Way.   She had a roll of paper but it wasn’t wide enough.  I said let’s make it in two halves.  She … Continue reading →

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Voice from the Past

Posted on May 30, 2010 by jenny

In 1995, I had a conversation in which I found out that I was wanting to publish a book because “it would prove that I deserved to live, even though my parents were disappointed in me.” I was so horrified … Continue reading →

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It’s Painful Looking Back

Posted on May 12, 2010 by jenny

(Written in July 2008) I’ve been reading from 1986, and it’s so painful.  I am struggling so hard to keep going, and I’m angry at myself for “not doing better”, and deeply disappointed that I’m not being able to carry … Continue reading →

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Hopeless Pain

Posted on April 28, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) O god I feel so hopeless at this moment.  I think if I could just lay down my head and die I might do it — but no, that’s not what I want.  What I want … Continue reading →

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More from Bruce Levine

Posted on April 27, 2010 by jenny

“Many self-help pundits preach that we all have choice.  This is essentially true, but for the unhealed it can be a damaging message.  At some level, they know they should have choice, but they don’t feel like they do.  This … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Self-Hate

Posted on April 23, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2003) OK.  My heart just aches with disappointment.  Can I be with my disappointment with mercy?  My heart softens.  O dear Little Jenny, you really weren’t able to look at house plans and see ways of working … Continue reading →

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Breakdown

Posted on April 17, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) 8: 22 I’m doing pretty badly.  I keep having waves of fear — tho they do pass.  Saw Karen in Montpelier — by the end of the session I was quiet inside.  3 waves of fear … Continue reading →

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