Category Archives: Trauma

Inner Child

Posted on April 10, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2005) Read some of Getting Through the Day.  It didn’t help yesterday, but today it’s clear that this level of despair is that of a child who has tried everything and given up.  She’s curled up in … Continue reading →

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Collages

Posted on March 27, 2011 by jenny

I was talking to a friend about a workshop in “Soul Collage” and it reminded me of some collages I’d done a long time ago.  I found the book, I think these were done in 1991.  What’s amazing to me … Continue reading →

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Painful Beliefs

Posted on March 26, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) A couple of painful conversations with Eleanor.  She asked about staying here more and I wasn’t able to say it would be OK.  My dismay clearly showed on my face, and she called and left a … Continue reading →

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Another Bad Night

Posted on March 22, 2011 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) Another bad night.  Heat in my chest and elbows — I think I remember that one from ‘96.  I’m doing my best to accept whatever is going on, thinking of it as a shamanic illness. I … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 20, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty hard time.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you.  We love you very much.  We are so sorry that this is being so hard, but it … Continue reading →

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Nancy Napier

Posted on March 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) A little better this morning.  My heart still hurts but I’m not experiencing the same depth of despair.  Yesterday I was reading Nancy Napier’s chapter on despair where she talks about sending a line of light … Continue reading →

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Theater Workshop

Posted on March 14, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) I want to think a little about what I didn’t get from the drama workshop.  I think I was wanting to celebrate my strength in getting as far as I have — it was the same … Continue reading →

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Angry at Myself

Posted on March 14, 2011 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) I’m worried that Bella’s medication isn’t working.  I listened to Napier tapes which sometimes provide relief.  I’m extremely angry at myself for being so stupid as to try to get off meds, and changing Bella’s food.  … Continue reading →

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Struggle

Posted on March 12, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Took 100 mg of Seroquel last night.  Woke after 3 in a state of complete self-hatred, frozen self-rejection.  Bella peeing a lot again after seeming a little better.  I’m so angry at myself for possibly wrecking … Continue reading →

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Trauma Through A Child’s Eyes

Posted on March 10, 2011 by jenny

I’ve been reading Trauma Through A Child’s Eyes by Peter Levine and Maggie Kline.  Peter Levine is the person who developed Somatic Experiencing as a method for healing trauma.  The book describes a number of ways children can be traumatized … Continue reading →

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