Category Archives: Trauma

PTSD

Posted on May 26, 2011 by jenny

After the women’s retreat I decided to do some therapy with Phyllis because I could trust her. It was in a therapy session with Phyllis that I had a very odd experience.  I just checked my journal for 1976 and … Continue reading →

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“feel good about myself”

Posted on May 25, 2011 by jenny

In April of 1976 I went to a women’s weekend retreat. It was very illuminating for me.  Afterward I did a number of therapy sessions with Phyllis. This is what I wrote in 1976: the core of the weekend for … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on May 21, 2011 by jenny

(Written in December 2008) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I woke at 3 and didn’t sleep again.  I’m exhausted and depressed and scared.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  We know it’s hard for you to … Continue reading →

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Heart Hurting

Posted on May 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Woke up with my heart hurting.  At first I made it be that I was bad and selfish and stingy that my heart was so cramped.  Then I thought perhaps my heart hurt so much because … Continue reading →

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Trauma

Posted on May 14, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) I was getting ready to go to Lore (my art therapist), but didn’t have much to take for the Retablo project I wanted to work on, I could feel the possibility of being torn apart, my … Continue reading →

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Breakdown, continued

Posted on May 11, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008.  After having a very bad time in August-September of 2008, I had a little respite in October & then things got bad again in late November.) Trouble eating yesterday, slept badly last night.  It’s 10° out.  … Continue reading →

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Ask Us Who We Are

Posted on May 9, 2011 by jenny

Went to St. Johnsbury to see Bess O’Brien’s latest documentary Ask Us Who We Are.  It’s about foster kids and foster families.  Powerful.  Painful.  Kids crying out “How could she not love me?” Wrongful stereotypes — like it’s the kid … Continue reading →

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Things Re-arranging Themselves

Posted on April 26, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2008) Woke sad.  Raining hard.  Yesterday I was typing up from the week after Laura’s training, trying to describe the disconcerting feelings and being unable to.  Karen helped a lot by telling me it was because my … Continue reading →

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Overwhelmed

Posted on April 25, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2008) I was so tired yesterday that I spent the morning sitting on this couch — reading The Secret Life of Bees which I find so nourishing, and my last journal volume from Laura’s training.  I’d been … Continue reading →

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Bleak Again

Posted on April 24, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2006) Bleak again.  No warmth anywhere.  I feel desperately alone, yet I don’t want anybody to come for fear they would be disapproving and rejecting.  This is the cold of rejection.  This is outer darkness.  I’m outside … Continue reading →

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