Category Archives: Trauma

Guidance

Posted on March 17, 2020 by jenny

I am probably in one of the safest places on the planet right now.  I’m in a retirement community with a good healthcare system, the campus was locked to outsiders by March 6.  People coming from outside have to go … Continue reading →

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Why it takes so long to heal early trauma

Posted on March 14, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece.  It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer.  One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that … Continue reading →

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The Demon’s Mirror

Posted on March 5, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: Wednesday, March 4 I’m feeling very sad and very lonely. Grief group was painful. Talked to Erica about how despairing I was feeling about what’s going on in the world.  She was supportive, did not try to … Continue reading →

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Creativity and Mental Illness

Posted on February 29, 2020 by jenny

Writing my journal this morning, I struggled with scattered thoughts, lots of odd, confused ideas.  Then the universe connected me with an interesting piece of information.  It was on Brainpickings, by Maria Popova. She quotes Nancy Andreasen’s book The Creating … Continue reading →

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Some Days I Just Want to Leave

Posted on February 24, 2020 by jenny

From John Pavlovitz’s Blog: Some days I just want to leave this world. Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately. The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair. It is an … Continue reading →

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Looking at the Past

Posted on February 23, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for July 21, 1975 My friend Michele told me that at a party the other night several people said nice things about me: Brook from tapestry class, Carol from dream class, said i was a very warm … Continue reading →

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“I’ve been working for so long…”

Posted on February 22, 2020 by jenny

Going through my blog for 2017, I came to this post from February 2017.  It’s a journal entry from January 2017.  It pretty well describes what I’m feeling like right now.  The only difference is that I AM in a … Continue reading →

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Defective vs. Wounded

Posted on February 20, 2020 by jenny

Written in my journal on January 20.  I was typing it up today, and saw something I need to remember. Looking back, I see that a week ago Monday (the 13) was a good day.  I woke happy, was able … Continue reading →

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A New Part of Me

Posted on February 14, 2020 by jenny

I haven’t posted for a while, because I’ve been having serious trouble verbalizing my experience.  It’s been about developing a relationship with a very early fragment of myself.  It started with recognizing that the non-verbal, scared experience that I’ve been … Continue reading →

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Being Cared For

Posted on February 6, 2020 by jenny

I had been at Kendal since November and this was July – eight months later.  The day before I had had a tooth pulled, and then I fell for a computer scam.  I had to cancel my debit card and … Continue reading →

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