Category Archives: Writing

Trying to “Surrender” Doesn’t Work

Posted on June 23, 2023 by jenny

This should have been posted right after my description of following Tosha Silver’s process, which I called The Real Universe. But I didn’t know what to say after saying that my attempts were “horribly unsuccessful.” Then I got distracted by … Continue reading →

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What’s Holding Me Back?

Posted on June 22, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for Monday, June 19 I tried to talk to the part that’s making me so scared.  I got little bits of dialogue before I actually sat down to write it. Me:  how old are you? Part:  Twelve … Continue reading →

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Confused and Miserable

Posted on June 20, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group last night: I’ve been so confused.  Feeling miserable.  Can’t identify feelings.  I’ve been at cross-purposes with Mocha.  I wanted to go over to Rivercrest and she did her thing of crouching and pulling back.  So we … Continue reading →

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My Life as a “Great Adventure”

Posted on May 18, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group on April 24. I remember how it used to upset me when people talked about “being grateful for the gift of life.”  I felt like the “gift” came to me smashed, it wasn’t a gift at … Continue reading →

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Quote from Etty Hillesum and Synchronicity

Posted on May 14, 2023 by jenny

“People sometimes say, ‘you must try to make the best of things.’  I find this such a feeble thing to say.  Everywhere things are both very good and very bad at the same time.  The two are in balance, everywhere … Continue reading →

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From 1992: Jenny seen by Elizabeth Goudge

Posted on May 6, 2023 by jenny

(Started in January 92, in Writers’ Group.  “I’ve been thinking of trying to write a description of myself as though I were an Elizabeth Goudge character.  That means with a lot of compassion, but no avoidance of weaknesses, and a … Continue reading →

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Interweavings

Posted on May 3, 2023 by jenny

I wrote this in writers group on May 1. I wasn’t really happy with it, it didn’t flow easily as “left-hand writings” did in the past. But the group liked it, which made me cry. So I post it here. … Continue reading →

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“May all beings be held in lovingkindness”

Posted on March 7, 2023 by jenny

Monday, March 6     Writing group: Nothing to say.    No where to go.    Once upon a time I was able to do left hand writing.  I called it that, but it wasn’t literally writing with my left hand, … Continue reading →

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Who is “Myself”?

Posted on March 4, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for Monday, January 23 Lying in bed before I got up, I didn’t feel like myself.  When I got up, I asked myself “Who knows I don’t feel like myself?”  — and who is it who asks? … Continue reading →

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Let Grief Speak

Posted on February 25, 2023 by jenny

Monday, February 20     Writing group: I want to write about grief.  Hard to get into. ask my grief to speak. Grief, what do you have to say? So deep and old.  So long ago.  Grief never allowed, never assuaged.  … Continue reading →

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