Category Archives: Spirit

Struggle with Choices

Posted on June 29, 2014 by jenny

I felt better this morning once I got out of bed.  Lying in bed after I woke up was miserable.  I’m thinking that if God comes to us disguised as our life — for a moment I saw my miserable … Continue reading →

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Changing Medication

Posted on June 28, 2014 by jenny

Some friends were worried because I’ve been going up and down a lot, and sometimes badly depressed. So I called Bill Cote, and he said he would prescribe Lamotrigine, which is a mood stabilizer.  I decided it was worth a … Continue reading →

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Back to Step One

Posted on May 11, 2014 by jenny

I forgot to mention that the title to a recent post:  “I surrender, my life is unmanageable,” is AA’s first step.  It’s necessary to give up and let go before you are ready to let God into your life.  It’s … Continue reading →

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Day of Grace

Posted on May 6, 2014 by jenny

Yesterday was a day of grace.  The night before I saw that my car battery (the hybrid battery that gets me 45mpg) was way down and I was afraid something wasn’t working properly.  I called my car guys, and said … Continue reading →

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Wakeup Call

Posted on May 4, 2014 by jenny

One friend was concerned about me after reading the last blog post.  I can’t blame her, I’m concerned about me too.  I’ve been doing what the professionals call “suicidal ideation,” although I don’t really want to die, I want to … Continue reading →

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Working on Learning to Love Myself

Posted on April 24, 2014 by jenny

I have been working on this issue for almost 40 years. One of the things I used to say over and over to myself was “Nobody ever loved me and nobody ever will.”  I meant romantic love, friends didn’t count.  … Continue reading →

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“God” vs “Universe”

Posted on April 10, 2014 by jenny

When I wrote yesterday, I was astonished to find that the universe and god felt so different.  The universe I connect to when I imagine the creative love that becomes the universe, is what I really believe is the REAL … Continue reading →

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I choose to trust…

Posted on April 8, 2014 by jenny

“Choosing to trust that this life matters and we’re all connected and this is all headed somewhere has made my life way, way better.” Rob Bell, What We Talk About When We Talk About God.   p125 I’ve modified this … Continue reading →

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Struggling with Fear

Posted on April 3, 2014 by jenny

Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, are you there?  I’m feeling bereft of spirit and god.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  We are all around you although we know you can’t feel our presence.  We … Continue reading →

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My Life is Unmanagable, I Surrender

Posted on March 27, 2014 by jenny

Tired and slow.  A little discouraged.  I called both Eve and Barbara, and they didn’t call back.  No matter what I did: read, play solitaire, I could feel the sadness like a weight in my heart.  I did try to … Continue reading →

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