Category Archives: Present Day

Back to Step One

Posted on May 11, 2014 by jenny

I forgot to mention that the title to a recent post:  “I surrender, my life is unmanageable,” is AA’s first step.  It’s necessary to give up and let go before you are ready to let God into your life.  It’s … Continue reading →

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Day of Grace

Posted on May 6, 2014 by jenny

Yesterday was a day of grace.  The night before I saw that my car battery (the hybrid battery that gets me 45mpg) was way down and I was afraid something wasn’t working properly.  I called my car guys, and said … Continue reading →

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I Surrender, My Life is Unmanageable

Posted on May 2, 2014 by jenny

The last couple of days have been really tough.  When I finally accepted the suggestion that my medications needed to be checked, I fell down into the pit.  I didn’t realize how much I had been depending on medication to … Continue reading →

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Working on Learning to Love Myself

Posted on April 24, 2014 by jenny

I have been working on this issue for almost 40 years. One of the things I used to say over and over to myself was “Nobody ever loved me and nobody ever will.”  I meant romantic love, friends didn’t count.  … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Anger and Disappointment

Posted on April 15, 2014 by jenny

I have a friend who’s lived with a man for years, but she’s not happy with him.  He’s an alcoholic who stopped drinking, but never did the work of the twelve steps.  He’s what’s known as a “dry drunk.”  He’s … Continue reading →

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Keep on Keeping on

Posted on April 11, 2014 by jenny

Dusting of snow.  Just below freezing.  Pretty totally discouraged.  Driving home last night I could feel how angry I was at myself (Eve said she picked up on it) and I was able to be OK with being angry.  But … Continue reading →

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“God” vs “Universe”

Posted on April 10, 2014 by jenny

When I wrote yesterday, I was astonished to find that the universe and god felt so different.  The universe I connect to when I imagine the creative love that becomes the universe, is what I really believe is the REAL … Continue reading →

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I choose to trust…

Posted on April 8, 2014 by jenny

“Choosing to trust that this life matters and we’re all connected and this is all headed somewhere has made my life way, way better.” Rob Bell, What We Talk About When We Talk About God.   p125 I’ve modified this … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Depression

Posted on April 4, 2014 by jenny

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me. I am a good person and I want what’s best for everyone. I intend to do the will of god I intend to be who god designed me to be I intend to … Continue reading →

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Struggling with Fear

Posted on April 3, 2014 by jenny

Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, are you there?  I’m feeling bereft of spirit and god.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  We are all around you although we know you can’t feel our presence.  We … Continue reading →

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