Category Archives: Present Day

Who I Really Am was Not Destroyed by PTSD

Posted on March 20, 2020 by jenny

Just typed this up.  It’s from my journal for February 12.  I’m writing about Grief Group.  One woman, who had been horribly abused in her childhood, told us about a recent dream.  She had dreamed about all the abusive incidents, … Continue reading →

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Another Complete Cycle

Posted on March 18, 2020 by jenny

Went through another complete cycle on Tuesday.  Daily Kos ran a story about how Trump has been minimizing the COVID danger.  He cares about the stock market more than people.  It showed his statements about “everything is fine” correlating with … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 17, 2020 by jenny

I am probably in one of the safest places on the planet right now.  I’m in a retirement community with a good healthcare system, the campus was locked to outsiders by March 6.  People coming from outside have to go … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 15, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for August 25, 2019 Dear Guides & Guardians, I really need some help. Dear Jenny, we love you.  Remember the kind Spirit that sat next to you when your heart was stony, and was patient and affectionate.  … Continue reading →

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“Announcing your place in the family of things…”

Posted on March 13, 2020 by jenny

I went to the 6th month reunion of Kindred Spirits.  From my journal: Reunion was utterly amazing.  The first night was mostly housekeeping, maybe we sang a song or two to connect.  That night I didn’t sleep at all, and … Continue reading →

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The Demon’s Mirror

Posted on March 5, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: Wednesday, March 4 I’m feeling very sad and very lonely. Grief group was painful. Talked to Erica about how despairing I was feeling about what’s going on in the world.  She was supportive, did not try to … Continue reading →

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Creativity and Mental Illness

Posted on February 29, 2020 by jenny

Writing my journal this morning, I struggled with scattered thoughts, lots of odd, confused ideas.  Then the universe connected me with an interesting piece of information.  It was on Brainpickings, by Maria Popova. She quotes Nancy Andreasen’s book The Creating … Continue reading →

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Some Days I Just Want to Leave

Posted on February 24, 2020 by jenny

From John Pavlovitz’s Blog: Some days I just want to leave this world. Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately. The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair. It is an … Continue reading →

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Defective vs. Wounded

Posted on February 20, 2020 by jenny

Written in my journal on January 20.  I was typing it up today, and saw something I need to remember. Looking back, I see that a week ago Monday (the 13) was a good day.  I woke happy, was able … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on February 15, 2020 by jenny

Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I have been having a confusing time with this new part that’s waked up in me.  It seems clear that integrating her is my job for now.  But I’m uncertain.  I’m afraid it’s too “self-involved.”  … Continue reading →

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