Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I have been having a confusing time with this new part that’s waked up in me. It seems clear that integrating her is my job for now. But I’m uncertain. I’m afraid it’s too “self-involved.” Please help me.
Dear Jenny, “self-involved” is not a problem. You are not “self-involved” when you are studying cosmology, or teaching circle dance. It is not having yourself as the object of your attention that is the problem with “self-involved.” The problem is being self-involved to the exclusion of everything else, of making yourself the center of the universe, of seeing everything you come in contact with in reference to yourself only. This is what your mother did. It is not what you are doing. Jalaja said your work in the depths of psyche has more benefits to the larger world than you can imagine. You are treading a difficult path, it’s no wonder you make an occasional mis-step, or get confused or feel lost. Sometimes you have to be unconscious to take the next step as you did on Tower Peak. Sometimes really protecting yourself gets sabotaged by old patterns. But you are actually doing rather well with a difficult path. This is your part of the “Great Turning” that the whole planet is going through. Keep on just as you are. You are doing fine. We are so proud of you.
Thank you. I feel much more solid, but on the edge of tears.
Jalaja’s comment: “The work you are doing is a gift to all beings, a blessing that will bear fruit in ways you cannot see or even imagine.”
When I was on a Sierra Club trip we climbed Tower Peak. At one point, the trail went along a narrow ledge, and there was a gap about a yard wide that we had to step over. Before I got to it, my mind shut down. After I was on the other side I realized that my thinking shut down so I wouldn’t be disabled by fear.