Category Archives: Present Day

Abandonment Trauma

Posted on June 26, 2020 by jenny

In yesterday’s post I notice the words “nothing”, underlined, and “annihilation.”  I’m simply unable to describe how it actually felt, and in fact, right now, I don’t remember how it felt.  Can’t recall it.  It’s such a total disappearance of … Continue reading →

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Being Unmet

Posted on June 21, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for Wednesday, May 20 I was feeling really awful yesterday.  It was like I had lost all the spiritual connection I’ve felt over the past months.  Somehow I was able to trust that it was real, it … Continue reading →

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Coalesce, Confluence, Confusion…

Posted on June 20, 2020 by jenny

Books I’ve been reading, recent news, posts on the internet, images that come to mind…  all have been coming together in a pattern, or almost a pattern, or maybe an almost combination that’s con-fusing…   To me, con-fusing suggests melting … Continue reading →

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Working on Trusting Myself

Posted on June 17, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for May 18, 2020 Crashed rather badly yesterday.  Not even sure what it was.  Well, there were a number of things.  Spontaneous Evolution was in a place that made me see how big is the danger that … Continue reading →

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Connecting with the pain of all of us…

Posted on June 2, 2020 by jenny

I have been feeling very sad and sore, quiet and tired.  I’ve been doing a lot of digital puzzles, not to avoid the feeling but because I didn’t know what to do with it.  Actually, I see that making some … Continue reading →

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“Sing the things you see…”

Posted on May 30, 2020 by jenny

Tuesday, May 26 3rd cup. coffee.  I want to work on the questions from Humanity Rising. 1. What am I being called to do? The first word that comes is “art.”  But how can that serve the world?  Allowing your … Continue reading →

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Life, the Greatest Gift of All

Posted on May 16, 2020 by jenny

There are a bunch of shadbush on the far side of Scattergood.  Every time I walk by and see their delicate flowers and red-brown leaves I grieve not being able to see the shad in flower along the Gale River.  … Continue reading →

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Feeling our Way, Intuition and Improvisation

Posted on May 2, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: 3rd cup. coffee.  Yesterday was a good day, despite things “going wrong” like a Zoom meeting for a play reading that got hacked, a walk with the dogs that was cut short by rain, etc.   When … Continue reading →

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A Day in the Life During Pandemic

Posted on April 25, 2020 by jenny

Typing up Wednesday, March 25 a month later, which is when I usually do it.  It’s odd to go back a month and see how we were just starting to come to terms with the pandemic.  To see the fragmentation … Continue reading →

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I Can Trust MYSELF

Posted on April 16, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for Thursday, April 16 3rd cup. Dandelion tea.  Richard Rohr says that real hope rests on a deep knowledge  and experience of God.  Because I have such a deep distrust of “God,” I see that my experience … Continue reading →

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