Category Archives: Present Day

Yesterday and Today

Posted on March 6, 2021 by jenny

Friday 3rd cup. coffee.  Going out with Mocha I did my best to say yes to everything.  Yes to cold, to wind, to frozen snow and dirty ice, to the call of a cardinal, to failure to see the cardinal, … Continue reading →

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Trauma vs. Initiation

Posted on February 20, 2021 by jenny

Francis Weller, from a talk published in Kosmos Journal: In any true initiatory process, there’s three things that happen. First, there’s a severance from the world that you once knew. Then there’s a radical alteration in your sense of identity. … Continue reading →

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Younger Parts of Me

Posted on February 17, 2021 by jenny

In my therapy session for January 15, one of the things that came up was that the only thing that would have made Mother happy would be to not be my true self.  Younger parts of me are bewildered by … Continue reading →

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Winter Solstice

Posted on December 21, 2020 by jenny

These readings came my way. Susan Cooper, The Shortest Day (Written for the Christmas Revels) So the shortest day came and the year died And everywhere down the centuries of the snow white world Came people singing, dancing, to drive … Continue reading →

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Something Totally New

Posted on December 20, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading Thomas Zinser’s book Soul-Centered Healing.  While I drank my coffee and read the Chapter called The Quickening, Mocha started squeaking.  I was determined to finish my coffee and the Chapter before I took her out, but her … Continue reading →

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Soul Medicine

Posted on December 11, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for Wednesday, December 9 The talk with Erica turned everything around again.  My energy was so much better for the rest of the day.  My life has not been a chore, but a battle.  A battle against … Continue reading →

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Defeated by Greater and Greater Beings

Posted on December 1, 2020 by jenny

First there was trauma, followed by PTSD, before my brain and nervous system matured. Then lack of mirroring and mis-representation by a narcissistic mother. Then the usual damage by Alcoholic parents. Then being a Highly Sensitive Person in a toxic … Continue reading →

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Do the failures matter?

Posted on November 30, 2020 by jenny

I’ve actually been feeling better since I acknowledged that I’m too tired to do much of anything, and stopped making myself wrong for not getting things done.  Stopped pushing myself. from my journal Wednesday, November 25 Another amazing talk with … Continue reading →

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What I learned from the Retreat

Posted on November 25, 2020 by jenny

This was written the day after the final day of the Courage and Renewal Retreat. Normally, when I post things I’ve written in my journal, I either edit them, or add material to explain some of the references.  Today I’m … Continue reading →

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Persephone, revisited

Posted on November 23, 2020 by jenny

from journal for Saturday, November 21 This was the second full day of the Courage & Renewal Retreat described in an earlier post: We were told to wander around outside or inside your space, find things that are beautiful, find … Continue reading →

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