Category Archives: Present Day

Working with Scared One

Posted on August 2, 2021 by jenny

from journal for Monday, August 2 Yesterday was pretty miserable. I realize that in some ways the misery of the day matched the metaphor of being trapped in stone. Trapped in a narrow point of view. Unable to imagine anything bigger. I started … Continue reading →

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Working with “Stuck Heart”

Posted on July 31, 2021 by jenny

from my journal for Friday, July 30 Woke at 5.  Intense heat.  Some fear, but mostly stuck heart.  Feeling desperately discouraged, unable to tune in or figure out what is going on with my heart.  Unable to get any compassion … Continue reading →

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Order — Disorder — Reorder

Posted on July 25, 2021 by jenny

This is from Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation for today, July 25 Living in a transitional age such as ours is scary: things are falling apart, the future is unknowable, so much doesn’t cohere or make sense. We can’t seem to … Continue reading →

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Blow by Blow Description of Work with “Parts”

Posted on July 23, 2021 by jenny

This is an attempt to illustrate what my work with parts is like.  I wrote in my journal exactly what was going on, when it was happening. Sunday, July 18 I think if I can’t do anything else, maybe I … Continue reading →

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Rescuing Young Parts

Posted on July 18, 2021 by jenny

My therapist and I are working with Richard Schwartz’s ideas, developed over the last 20 years as Internal Family Systems.  Instead of being able to deal with parts who can talk individually, I get flooded by parts who are desperate … Continue reading →

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Dawnland and The Gatherings

Posted on July 12, 2021 by jenny

Early in January, Hanover Friends Meeting hosted a talk by Bruce Duthu about the Truth and Reconciliation Commission in Maine.  The TRC was intended to uncover the truth about child-welfare practice with Maine’s Native people.  They wanted to create opportunities … Continue reading →

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Forgiveness

Posted on June 28, 2021 by jenny

From my journal for Monday, June 28 Yesterday was a miserable day.  The low-grade fear or whatever it is in my heart is so uncomfortable.  I’ve been trying to get her to tell me what the problem is, but so … Continue reading →

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Angry One

Posted on June 24, 2021 by jenny

Feeling desperately scared the morning of June 22, I found it really hard even to go through my well-practiced routine of cooking breakfast.  As soon as I finished breakfast and walked Mocha, I went down to the Clinic to see … Continue reading →

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Work with Stuck Energy

Posted on June 18, 2021 by jenny

From my journal for Wednesday, June 16 “May this energy go to where it can be used for the highest and best good of all.”  I woke at about 4:20 and felt the burning energy in my heart and elbows.  … Continue reading →

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Work with Younger Parts of Me

Posted on June 9, 2021 by jenny

To explain to people I trust when they ask how I am, I’ve been saying: “I’m dealing with flashbacks to early trauma, and I often feel terrified.”  The reality is that I am overwhelmed with very young parts who are … Continue reading →

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