Monthly Archives: April 2012

No Expectations

Posted on April 9, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) It’s interesting. I’m feeling OK right now.  Yesterday I decided that I wasn’t going to do anything today, I also expected to feel horrible and figured I’d just soldier on.  This has happened other times when … Continue reading →

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Continued Struggle

Posted on April 7, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) Woke scared & sad.  It’s grey and it rained in the night so all the fall colors are glowing.  Yesterday was tough.  I cried so much with Karen that I got a headache.  Caryn would have … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Self-Hate

Posted on April 6, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) I cooked rice but I wasn’t able to eat breakfast.  Called Karen.  She said not to “shame & blame” myself, but of course I’m comparing myself to Diane who’s “glad to be alive”, who faced life-threatening … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Depression

Posted on April 5, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) Lynelle said she had a good visit with her friend Diane, who she hasn’t seen for a while.  She said Diane had lost both breasts, but was glad to be alive.  Lynelle said she had a … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on April 4, 2012 by jenny

(Written in December 2010) Dear Guides & Guardians, I’m feeling a little blue.     There, there, Little Jenny, it’s right to mourn that so much of your life’s energy was wasted — at first just trying to survive, then trying … Continue reading →

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