Category Archives: Journal

Feeling Unreal

Posted on September 5, 2017 by jenny

I haven’t posted anything for a while.  My life has been very difficult: overwhelming, crazy-making.  There’s an earlier post about Feeling Unreal, so that’s been another part of this difficult summer.  I don’t even know how much sense this post … Continue reading →

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Pain Becomes Compassion

Posted on August 18, 2017 by jenny

I was typing up from a month ago when I had woken up feeling sad & scared, and was so disappointed that I had lost the good feelings from the day before.  I was angry at myself for “wrecking” my … Continue reading →

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I Feel Pain Because I Love

Posted on August 17, 2017 by jenny

Last Saturday I didn’t have any human contact all day.  I typed a lot of journal, played a lot of solitaire.  Washed a bunch of dishes.  Dumped a puzzle on the table & started turning pieces right side up.  I … Continue reading →

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My Pain is Not About Myself

Posted on July 12, 2017 by jenny

This was in my journal for June 10.  I typed it up today, and saw that I was making my pain personal, and a mistake on my part.  I did not see that it might be related to the state … Continue reading →

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From Despair to Meaning

Posted on July 10, 2017 by jenny

I continued to work with the ideas in Stephen Cope’s book The Great Work of Your Life. “Here are the central pillars of the path of action — the path of karma yoga — as expounded by Krishna. … 1. Look … Continue reading →

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PTSD and Dharma?

Posted on July 9, 2017 by jenny

I’m very grateful that I’ve been reading Stephen Cope’s book The Great Work of Your Life.  I’ve read it before, but this time many things spoke to me in a very personal way. I’m wondering about looking at my struggle … Continue reading →

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Working with Uncomfortable Physical Sensations

Posted on June 22, 2017 by jenny

The situation: I bought a car for my friend Eleanor, because the one she was driving has bad brakes that may go anytime.  I am also in the final stages of applying to Kendal, a retirement community that will provide … Continue reading →

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Being Present to the Beauty of Nature

Posted on June 7, 2017 by jenny

For a long time, because of trying to heal PTSD, and opening up all the pain I have been dissociated from, I was unable to enjoy the beauty of Nature as I had when I was younger.  Things are changing. … Continue reading →

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Tough Time

Posted on May 28, 2017 by jenny

Sunday, April 28 I’m going through a very difficult time.  The bad news from the outer world doesn’t help at all.  I feel like I’m living in a war zone.  I am living in a war zone, between the people … Continue reading →

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Bababadalgharagh…..denenthurnuk!

Posted on April 14, 2017 by jenny

Friday, April 14 I wrote this this morning , trying to understand what is going on in my psyche.  It actually produced something that helped make sense of the many issues I am juggling.  “Keep the pen moving” is an … Continue reading →

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