Category Archives: Journal

Working on Trusting Myself

Posted on June 17, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for May 18, 2020 Crashed rather badly yesterday.  Not even sure what it was.  Well, there were a number of things.  Spontaneous Evolution was in a place that made me see how big is the danger that … Continue reading →

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Frozen Terror from PTSD

Posted on June 13, 2020 by jenny

I was amazed when reading through my journal for 1991 I found this: from Journal for April 25, 1991 I have been printing out copies of Ritual Year to send to people. When I glance through it, and see things like … Continue reading →

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Feeling our Way, Intuition and Improvisation

Posted on May 2, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: 3rd cup. coffee.  Yesterday was a good day, despite things “going wrong” like a Zoom meeting for a play reading that got hacked, a walk with the dogs that was cut short by rain, etc.   When … Continue reading →

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A Day in the Life During Pandemic

Posted on April 25, 2020 by jenny

Typing up Wednesday, March 25 a month later, which is when I usually do it.  It’s odd to go back a month and see how we were just starting to come to terms with the pandemic.  To see the fragmentation … Continue reading →

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Invalidating and Trivializing my Experience

Posted on April 17, 2020 by jenny

I have been reading my journal for 1986, and came across this entry about the noise phobia in November. I had a bad time with anger yesterday.  Feelings of rage kept surfacing, and I would let myself feel it, but … Continue reading →

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I Can Trust MYSELF

Posted on April 16, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for Thursday, April 16 3rd cup. Dandelion tea.  Richard Rohr says that real hope rests on a deep knowledge  and experience of God.  Because I have such a deep distrust of “God,” I see that my experience … Continue reading →

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Noise Phobia

Posted on April 11, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for January 6, 1984  I am just beginning to experience the noise phobia. It will continue until 1997. I’m having an extraordinarily hard time lately.  I’ve been oddly sick, up and down, for about two weeks.  Sore … Continue reading →

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Gratitude

Posted on April 8, 2020 by jenny

I have been concerned lately about what are the things I would really regret not having done if I died tomorrow.  That was the push to get me over the hump to actually write gratitude letters to people I had … Continue reading →

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Today

Posted on April 4, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: Headache. Tired. Sad.  Slept late.  I’m disappointed with myself for feeling sad again, and then I realize that it’s sadness for all the people who are scared and suffering right now. I look at the pictures of … Continue reading →

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Standing in My Truth

Posted on March 24, 2020 by jenny

“A life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.  From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.”    Charles Eisenstein My first crisis happened when … Continue reading →

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