Category Archives: Journal

Early Work with Younger “Parts”

Posted on September 19, 2023 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) In a session of the “Wave Work” at Kripalu: there was a confusing struggle with my body’s tendency to cramp up (esp left hand) and kick, shake, jump.  Finally I let it shrivel up into a … Continue reading →

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1995: Moving Along the Bottom

Posted on September 13, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 14, 1995 [I had a dream about Andy Lindsay who worked at the yacht club, had a boat called “Pelagius — for the originator of some heresy.”  I looked it up: “Pelagianism: The theological doctrine … Continue reading →

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1995: Symptoms of Trauma

Posted on September 12, 2023 by jenny

At this point in 1995 I had no idea I was dealing with PTSD. From my journal for November 10: Second cup of tea. … and nothing to say.  I feel cold.  There’s the ache in my stomach and heart … Continue reading →

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1995: Looking for Value in my Life

Posted on September 4, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 27, 1995 I’m bored with reading, I feel too tired to write …  Sometimes I hate my life.  (“I need to learn to love my poor wounded life because it needs love”)  How can I … Continue reading →

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1995: The Trauma of “Don’t think you’re so great”

Posted on September 2, 2023 by jenny

In this passage I see that I am essentially a creative person, but I’ve never been able to actualize more than a small percentage of what I was capable of. The reason is because of my mother constantly telling me … Continue reading →

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1995: Biological Foundation for Mood Disorders

Posted on August 30, 2023 by jenny

I wish I had named the book and the author.  I find it fascinating that it took so long for me to find out that I was dealing with trauma, that my reaction to the noise of the planes was … Continue reading →

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1995: “Truth” and “Self”

Posted on August 25, 2023 by jenny

This is was written during the time when I was having a bad time with the noise of small planes, especially the ones that towed gliders up from the Franconia Airport. I wrote this after a particularly bad day. I’m … Continue reading →

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1995: Self-Mutilation

Posted on August 23, 2023 by jenny

So amazing to read this. I started cutting myself in California when a boyfriend left me for someone else. I did it for a number of years in my 20’s, and stopped, interestingly, when my brother said “Buddha says ‘life … Continue reading →

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1995: Difficulty with Creativity

Posted on August 22, 2023 by jenny

This is a description of a therapy session with Karen Collins who I saw in Montpelier for many years. I was amazed at what it reveals about my difficulty with my creativity. I had understood at one point that when … Continue reading →

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1995: Interviews and Feedback about my Performance in Journey into Courage

Posted on August 20, 2023 by jenny

This material is some of the first I typed up from the handwritten journals after September 15 when I stopped typing them. I’m not typing everything, just pieces I think would make good blog posts. After the Video of Journey … Continue reading →

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