Category Archives: Depression

PTSD

Posted on June 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) What’s coming up is how sad and frustrated I feel that I haven’t been able to live up to my own standards of responsibility and integrity.  I feel very sad that I had to leave Kayla … Continue reading →

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Bleak

Posted on June 6, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2006) Work with Karen was painful.  Trying to be OK with myself just as I am and finding it impossible. I’m feeling incredibly confused and lost, sad and scared.  Heart feels squeezed.  I don’t know what to … Continue reading →

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Good Memories?

Posted on June 5, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2010) I’ve noticed the last couple of days that when I’m with people I’m fine, when I’m alone I have odd fragmentary feelings or memories and they are all filled with a kind of dull pain, perhaps … Continue reading →

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Voice from the Past

Posted on May 30, 2010 by jenny

In 1995, I had a conversation in which I found out that I was wanting to publish a book because “it would prove that I deserved to live, even though my parents were disappointed in me.” I was so horrified … Continue reading →

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Self-care

Posted on May 14, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) Workshop question: what helps you be present to yourself.  I need space and time and permission — more than permission, I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is the right thing … Continue reading →

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Depression

Posted on May 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) What to do when I fall into depression.  Remind myself that the feelings of hopelessness and helplessness and worthlessness are not giving me information about reality.  They are caused by brain chemistry and trauma.  The truth … Continue reading →

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It’s Painful Looking Back

Posted on May 12, 2010 by jenny

(Written in July 2008) I’ve been reading from 1986, and it’s so painful.  I am struggling so hard to keep going, and I’m angry at myself for “not doing better”, and deeply disappointed that I’m not being able to carry … Continue reading →

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More from Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic

Posted on May 11, 2010 by jenny

From Bruce Levine: On depression in adolescence: “Why is it that so many young people have unhealed wounds?  Since our consumer culture is increasingly uncomfortable when it comes to dealing with pain, many parents have difficulty dealing with their children’s … Continue reading →

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Hopeless Pain

Posted on April 28, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) O god I feel so hopeless at this moment.  I think if I could just lay down my head and die I might do it — but no, that’s not what I want.  What I want … Continue reading →

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Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic

Posted on April 26, 2010 by jenny

More quotes from Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic, by Bruce Levine. “It saddens me when unhappy people who have become so despondent that they consider suicide view themselves as weak or sick.  If death feels more attractive than life, it means … Continue reading →

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