Category Archives: Healing

Immanent and Transcendent

Posted on February 21, 2021 by jenny

From something I wrote in 1996, while I was going through the Summer from Hell: But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how … Continue reading →

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Trauma vs. Initiation

Posted on February 20, 2021 by jenny

Francis Weller, from a talk published in Kosmos Journal: In any true initiatory process, there’s three things that happen. First, there’s a severance from the world that you once knew. Then there’s a radical alteration in your sense of identity. … Continue reading →

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Something Totally New

Posted on December 20, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading Thomas Zinser’s book Soul-Centered Healing.  While I drank my coffee and read the Chapter called The Quickening, Mocha started squeaking.  I was determined to finish my coffee and the Chapter before I took her out, but her … Continue reading →

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The Narcissist

Posted on December 10, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for July 13, 1992 More realizations have crystallized out of my experience of V last week. One is how the narcissist is hollow, all surface, for all the self involvement, there isn’t any “self” there.  I went … Continue reading →

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A Place of Strength

Posted on December 9, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for July 10, 1992 Since I’m planning to take a break from therapy for about six weeks, we talked about issues of separation from Mother.  I told Karen about V, and how I was not at all … Continue reading →

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Unconscious Cruelty

Posted on December 8, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for July 8, 1992 written the day after writers group with Lynn & her mother V Gosh what a cannibal V is, what a horrid woman.  And in some ways just like my mother.  So nice on the … Continue reading →

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Healing

Posted on October 29, 2020 by jenny

From post for October 2003: The pain in my heart is so great — there’s something about this deep level that’s so difficult.  I suppose because I’m so practiced at making myself wrong and turning away from this kind of … Continue reading →

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Rewriting My Life

Posted on October 1, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for yesterday: WholeHeart:    poem is Making Peace by Denise Levertov “If we restructured the sentence our lives are making.” The sentence my life is making.  It definitely needs to be restructured. Trauma becomes initiation. Abuse becomes … Continue reading →

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Perspective on the Deupree Family

Posted on September 22, 2020 by jenny

Kathi Brown was a really good friend from my years in California.  She and her family rescued me when I left a relationship that wasn’t working.  When I was in the Hospital at Davis after a breakdown, she came every … Continue reading →

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To Be Friendly Toward Myself

Posted on September 20, 2020 by jenny

In Meeting this morning, someone read a poem by Mirabai about beauty.  I think about how the ability to perceive and enjoy beauty depends on brain chemistry.  I was very glad to find that out, because I thought I was … Continue reading →

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