Category Archives: Healing

Despair

Posted on September 7, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Tried the Heart Flow again but nearly fell asleep so I got up & danced hoping it would help.  The damn dog next door with the high-pitched bark irritates me — I try to bring compassion … Continue reading →

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Torah of Jenny

Posted on August 31, 2011 by jenny

The “Torah of Jenny” was a project that I started with an art therapist, Lore Caldwell, who I was seeing in Littleton.  She started me with a roll of brown paper, and it turned out to be my life as … Continue reading →

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A Letter from God

Posted on August 26, 2011 by jenny

For a while now I’ve been hanging out with “lost the will to live.”  Paying attention to the feelings but not acting on them.  I notice that I don’t have a lot of energy, and it’s hard to summon up … Continue reading →

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Hope

Posted on August 5, 2011 by jenny

I continue to be surprised that telling the truth about how I feel and sharing it results in me feeling a lot better.   Once I wrote a letter to my brother about how depressed I was feeling and the same … Continue reading →

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Resilience

Posted on July 30, 2011 by jenny

I want to write about how different this time is from all the other times when I felt good for a while and said things like “now that I’ve finally made it” or “now that I’ve fought my  way through” … Continue reading →

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The View from the Present

Posted on July 27, 2011 by jenny

Yesterday’s post, from 2005, gives me a sense of how far I’ve come, how much I’ve healed.  Events have taken place at Neskaya that were a fulfillment of my vision that was so far beyond any expectation that I had … Continue reading →

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Anger

Posted on July 18, 2011 by jenny

When I lived in California in the 60’s, I had a friend who could use her angry energy to clean her apartment until it sparkled.  I really envied her.  My anger disabled me. For years, whenever I got angry, my … Continue reading →

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Grief Work

Posted on July 1, 2011 by jenny

(Written in April 2009) Called Beverly to see if she would be willing to do some grief work with me.  She was, so I started reading from the beginning.  She challenged the idea that Mom & Granny & Gramp had … Continue reading →

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“Big Heart”

Posted on June 30, 2011 by jenny

(Written in April 2009) With Karen I talked about having trouble taking in the love that’s there for me.  Karen said I was “lovable” and I cried and turned away.  She said I have a big heart.  I thought how … Continue reading →

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“The First Home”

Posted on June 26, 2011 by jenny

It’s been quite a while since I posted entries relating to the breakdown I experienced in the fall of 2008 and the winter of 2009.  You can catch up with these by clicking on the link for “breakdown.” (Written in … Continue reading →

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