Category Archives: Healing

And What Remains?

Posted on January 31, 2019 by jenny

I read what I had first written to the group, and said something like “I have no idea what remains.”  One of them said “What is not yet discovered,” which was a huge help.  I remembered and added: Eve and … Continue reading →

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What is Gone?

Posted on January 26, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been going to a writing group about loss.  I wrote this at the third meeting.  But it was a clumsy scramble, and brought up contradictions that I didn’t have time to explore.  I want to explore the whole process … Continue reading →

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Really Doing OK Just as I Am

Posted on January 9, 2019 by jenny

Tuesday, January 1 This morning I was thinking about a conversation with God, where I asked what I needed to do to fulfill “His” will, and God said “You’re doing fine just as you are,” and I said “No, I want … Continue reading →

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Perspective on the Past

Posted on January 7, 2019 by jenny

I went back and started reading my journal for 2018.  Found a lot that was very interesting. June 16, 2018 The talk with Erica was good. I have been really puzzling over why other people see what I am doing as … Continue reading →

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Process of Understanding What I’m up Against

Posted on August 10, 2018 by jenny

This is what I wrote in my journal this morning.  It shows how I actually use writing to understand myself better.  This process began with a realization that “I’ve had the sense that reading thrillers addictively was in an attempt … Continue reading →

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Vocation

Posted on August 4, 2018 by jenny

I wondered yesterday if the effort to heal from PTSD could itself be a vocation.  That my work to heal myself is significant and meaningful.  That the point is not to be healed, and then to do what would be … Continue reading →

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Identity Confusion/Conflict (for lack of a better title)

Posted on June 11, 2018 by jenny

Friday, June 8 Don’t know how to start.  So odd.  I read what I wrote down that Elizabeth said in our phone conversation — “Identity in flux” — yes that’s exactly my experience. “Attachment repair” — homies seeking to “re-identify”  … Continue reading →

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Spirituality

Posted on June 10, 2018 by jenny

“Spirituality is recognizing and celebrating that we are all inextricably connected to each other by a power greater than all of us, and that our connection to that power and to one another is grounded in love and compassion.  Practicing … Continue reading →

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Extraordinary Ease with my Life…. Really?

Posted on April 1, 2018 by jenny

Excerpts from journal written during the week at the end of February: Sunday: Woke up not sure where I was.  I think from a very intense dream.  Feeling very lost. Monday:   Had that strange isolated feeling when I woke … Continue reading →

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Spasm of Self-hate

Posted on March 31, 2018 by jenny

This is an example of how I work through something in my journal.  It took several days and then some of the realizations only happened while I was typing it up a month later.  These are in italics. February 7 … Continue reading →

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