Category Archives: Trauma

“Surrender”

Posted on April 11, 2016 by jenny

I talked to my friend who said of my recent blog post about “Living Well” that I was in reactive/responsive orientation instead of creative orientation.  I did some thinking about this.  “Reactive/responsive” is choosing what to do with things that come at … Continue reading →

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Question of “Living Well”

Posted on March 24, 2016 by jenny

Oliver Sacks says of his life:  “My predominant feeling is one of gratitude.  I have loved and been loved.  I have been given much and I have given something in return.”  I would say this is a “good life” and … Continue reading →

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“Hurt Too Badly to Live”

Posted on March 23, 2016 by jenny

This is a phrase I have found very painful.  It’s always caused me pain to see the dead animals by the side of the road.  I’ve been in terror of what would I do if I saw one that was … Continue reading →

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Caught in Traumatized Baby

Posted on February 24, 2016 by jenny

Written on January 14 I feel like a tiny useless lump.  I desperately need refuge.  I want to curl up and hide and I want some very loving being to put her arms around me and say “there there.” I … Continue reading →

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Grief and Regression

Posted on February 12, 2016 by jenny

Erica recommended a book called “The Wild Edge of Sorrow” and it came today.  I found two paragraphs in it that described exactly the place where I’ve been stuck. “One of the most essential skills we need to develop in … Continue reading →

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Grief and Grieving

Posted on February 3, 2016 by jenny

This is a response to a blog post on Tim Lawrence’s “The Adversity Within.”  [Edit 2/26/20 — I went to this link and got something completely different.  Don’t know what happened.  I fear that he may have killed himself.]  He’s … Continue reading →

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The Core of Trauma

Posted on January 24, 2016 by jenny

This last week has been really tough.  On Tuesday I had the hardest, most painful therapy session that I’ve ever experienced.  Before I drove down I wrote: Damn!  I’m starting to feel scared.  Part of it may be that there’s … Continue reading →

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Living with PTSD

Posted on January 23, 2016 by jenny

Erica suggested I take one of my affirmations/realizations and write from it.  I chose “Depression is a big deal.  It has taken courage, strength and determination to create as much of a life as I have.”  I became aware of … Continue reading →

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Frozen Terror

Posted on January 6, 2016 by jenny

from my journal for February 1971.  I was living in a big house in Portland Maine with my sister.  I was 29 years old and had left California after a breakdown and all I wanted to do was hide.  I had … Continue reading →

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Triggered

Posted on December 28, 2015 by jenny

I started reading Invisible Heroes, the book on trauma survivors by Belleruth Naparstek, because it often helps me.  But this morning I read a description of trauma that so accurately described how I feel when the baby is triggered, that … Continue reading →

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