Category Archives: Trauma

Invalidating and Trivializing my Experience

Posted on April 17, 2020 by jenny

I have been reading my journal for 1986, and came across this entry about the noise phobia in November. I had a bad time with anger yesterday.  Feelings of rage kept surfacing, and I would let myself feel it, but … Continue reading →

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I Can Trust MYSELF

Posted on April 16, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for Thursday, April 16 3rd cup. Dandelion tea.  Richard Rohr says that real hope rests on a deep knowledge  and experience of God.  Because I have such a deep distrust of “God,” I see that my experience … Continue reading →

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Noise Phobia

Posted on April 11, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for January 6, 1984  I am just beginning to experience the noise phobia. It will continue until 1997. I’m having an extraordinarily hard time lately.  I’ve been oddly sick, up and down, for about two weeks.  Sore … Continue reading →

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Good Friday

Posted on April 10, 2020 by jenny

Richard Rohr: I believe that the cross is an image for our own time, and every time: we are invited to gaze upon the image of the crucified Jesus to soften our hearts toward all suffering. Amidst the devastating spread of COVID-19, the cross beckons us … Continue reading →

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Making the Choice for Love

Posted on April 9, 2020 by jenny

from Richard Rohr’s daily meditation for April 9: Giving up control is a school to learn union, compassion, and understanding. It is ultimately a school for the final letting go that we call death. Right now, as we face social … Continue reading →

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Hijacked

Posted on April 6, 2020 by jenny

Van der Kolk “The big issue for traumatized people is they don’t own themselves any more.  Any loud sound, anybody insulting them, hurting them, saying bad things, can hijack them away from themselves.  And so what we have learned is … Continue reading →

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“Shelter in Place”

Posted on April 3, 2020 by jenny

Because of COVID-19, I am getting scared on a regular basis.  If I can find either my grief or my gratitude it will help dissolve the fear.  But it’s a wild ride.  I also have been getting together with my … Continue reading →

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Standing in My Truth

Posted on March 24, 2020 by jenny

“A life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.  From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.”    Charles Eisenstein My first crisis happened when … Continue reading →

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Who I Really Am was Not Destroyed by PTSD

Posted on March 20, 2020 by jenny

Just typed this up.  It’s from my journal for February 12.  I’m writing about Grief Group.  One woman, who had been horribly abused in her childhood, told us about a recent dream.  She had dreamed about all the abusive incidents, … Continue reading →

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Another Complete Cycle

Posted on March 18, 2020 by jenny

Went through another complete cycle on Tuesday.  Daily Kos ran a story about how Trump has been minimizing the COVID danger.  He cares about the stock market more than people.  It showed his statements about “everything is fine” correlating with … Continue reading →

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