Category Archives: Present Day

The Self-reinforcing Nature of Depression

Posted on December 29, 2012 by jenny

One of the hardest things about depression is the way it drives the cycle deeper.  I’ve been watching myself slide deeper into depression over the last week.  I know that part of it is associated with the holidays, I know … Continue reading →

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Christmas Memories

Posted on December 25, 2012 by jenny

Going to Mr. Wunker to pick out a tree.  The elaborate method of setting it up so it could take in lots of water and not be a fire hazard.  Going to see the living creche at Lytle Park and … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on December 14, 2012 by jenny

The session with Caryn was pretty amazing.  This is where Somatic Experiencing becomes shamanic work.  I wedged my self into my corner and started crying.  I told her about being depressed again again, waking up OK only to lose it … Continue reading →

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How Do I Know What I “Really Want”?

Posted on December 13, 2012 by jenny

Kayla and I have been doing a course in “Feminine Power.”  Some of the ideas have been very helpful. But recently I was finding it too abstract.  She said the basic thing was to take 100% responsibility for our lives.  … Continue reading →

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A Day in the Life

Posted on December 9, 2012 by jenny

“Today, like every other day, we wake up empty/and frightened.”   I woke up with that heavy grey, tired feeling.  I felt disappointed and discouraged to be waking up like this again again.  Then I remembered that my work is to … Continue reading →

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Theories about Depression: Tray of Cups and Ferris Wheel

Posted on November 30, 2012 by jenny

From feeling great I fell into depression again.  At least this time I don’t feel like I’ve fallen back into old ways.  It’s clear that this is a new layer of old stuff.  It reminds me of my “Tray of … Continue reading →

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Hostile Universe/ Friendly Universe

Posted on November 28, 2012 by jenny

I haven’t posted anything for a while.  I was sick, and then happy and busy, and then depressed again.  It took me awhile to figure out what had triggered the depression, then it occurred to me that it was “fear … Continue reading →

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More Thoughts on Loneliness

Posted on November 18, 2012 by jenny

Another difficulty in finding friends is that I am extremely intelligent. (I left it out of the first post because of being afraid I was bragging.) I also happen to be well educated, but my two best friends are very … Continue reading →

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Profoundly Lonely

Posted on November 18, 2012 by jenny

I am feeling profoundly lonely.  I know I need to see at least one person who cares about me every day.  Due to a life-long struggle with depression, I didn’t have a chance to make a lot of friends.  My … Continue reading →

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Government OF the People, BY the People, FOR the People

Posted on October 7, 2012 by jenny

In Healing the Soul of America, Marianne Williamson quotes Lincoln’s famous words: “this nation … shall have a new birth of freedom, and that government of the people, by the people, and for the people shall not perish from the … Continue reading →

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