Category Archives: Present Day

Turnaround

Posted on March 8, 2015 by jenny

Wow.  What a turnaround.  I don’t feel any of the pain or confusion I felt two days ago.  One part of me was really beginning to get it that things are still there even when I get disconnected from them: … Continue reading →

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Tough Session

Posted on March 7, 2015 by jenny

Yesterday was really tough.  I got to Erica and just cried.  I told her I was confused, had no sense of priority, and lost the sense of a solid core, did not feel connected to her.  She said all those … Continue reading →

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Deep Work

Posted on February 16, 2015 by jenny

The work I’ve been doing with Erica has required me to go deep in myself and try to get what’s going on there.  It’s a non-verbal part of myself, so usually I get a feeling and then try to translate … Continue reading →

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The Body Keeps the Score

Posted on February 9, 2015 by jenny

Bessel Van Der Kolk is one of my heroes.  I went to the first weekend workshop he ever gave at Kripalu, wondering what such a high-powered academic was doing at that center for yoga and health.  Turns out he had … Continue reading →

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“Not Worth Taking Care Of”

Posted on January 14, 2015 by jenny

Entries from my journal for early January: Monday I was typing the entry for December 1, where I had talked about not telling someone outside the shop that their car lights were on, and not picking up a hitch-hiker, and … Continue reading →

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Selective Amnesia

Posted on December 18, 2014 by jenny

At the end of our recent therapy session Erica said that the episode with Damien was a healing experience.  She said why that was so, and I remember thinking I should write it down, but it seemed too complicated to … Continue reading →

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Conversation with Jesus

Posted on December 17, 2014 by jenny

My take on Jesus is that he is no more the “Son of God” than any of us, that we are all children of god.  It doesn’t matter to me whether the Virgin Birth and the Resurrection are true or … Continue reading →

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Not to Rescue, but to be Rescued

Posted on December 7, 2014 by jenny

I feel crashed, utterly felled, fallen into a deep dark hole by the decision to send Damien back.  What’s most painful is seeing how I do have the skills to work with him and befriend him, what I don’t have … Continue reading →

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Rescue Dog

Posted on December 1, 2014 by jenny

I brought Damien home a week ago.  He mostly stays in his crate, but he does come out to eat, to drink, and to use his wee-wee pad.  (I’m very grateful that he always pees exactly in the middle.)  He’s … Continue reading →

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Damien

Posted on November 20, 2014 by jenny

Saturday I went to see Damien again, hoping that if he gets a little familiar with me, the transition to my house won’t be so hard.  But it was a little disappointing.  He was grumpy when I got there, possibly … Continue reading →

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