Category Archives: Breakdown

Guidance

Posted on July 19, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m tired and bummed out.  All the talk around me has been of people struggling with unfair governmental, bureaucratic, societal practices, and people who are too numb to care or fight … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 19, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2008) Session with Caryn.  Worked with the high activation.  I have difficulty describing it.  A squarish lump of compressed energy in my chest.  That feeling when you’re startled & breathe in & stop, hunching shoulders.  I feel … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 18, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2008) Session with Caryn.  Amazing.  I told her about falling apart so badly Tuesday night.  She asked me to reproduce how it felt in my body and I had a sense of the frantic frozen traumatized baby.  … Continue reading →

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Breakdown

Posted on April 17, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) 8: 22 I’m doing pretty badly.  I keep having waves of fear — tho they do pass.  Saw Karen in Montpelier — by the end of the session I was quiet inside.  3 waves of fear … Continue reading →

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Discouraged

Posted on March 29, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) I’m finding it hard to accept that I need to keep taking 50mg imipramine just to be able to keep going.  It feels like such a defeat, such a proof that I’m a weakling.  I was … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 25, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m having a really hard time.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  Let yourself relax and sink into our loving.  It is hard for you to … Continue reading →

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What it’s like in the Underworld of PTSD

Posted on March 22, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) At Neskaya.  Having a cup of tea because I’ve been cold all morning.  This reminds me of that terrible February when I went to Cincinnati — for a week?  I know I wrote “two whole weeks … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 16, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, it’s been a very stressful time, and I feel totally out of touch with Spirit.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you.  Take flower remedies.  Yes, you have impossibly high … Continue reading →

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