Category Archives: Journal

1996: Crippled Artist Part of Myself

Posted on July 21, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for May 28, 1996.  I had a dream of a crippled artist who has only one leg. So what can I say about the crippled artist part of myself? She’s vivacious, attractive (I seem to remember dark eyes, … Continue reading →

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1996: Continuum Workshop

Posted on July 18, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for May 18, 1996         I was at a Continuum workshop. It’s a  movement practice developed by Emilie Conrad Da’oud Emilie’s talk is quite fascinating.  I don’t buy it all on a literal, scientific level, but … Continue reading →

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1996: Enneagram 4, Difficult Winter, Individuation Process

Posted on July 15, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for May 8, 1996 Woke early.  I have angry rejoinders to my brother going through my head, so thought I would just write them down.  Actually, I think he did me a service with his stupid, patronizing, … Continue reading →

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1996: Beltane

Posted on July 13, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for April 29, 1996.  The holiday I am talking about is Beltane, May 1, also called May Day, one of the cross quarter days of the Old Nature Religion of Western Europe.  My energy for teaching dance … Continue reading →

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1996: What Would Healing Look Like

Posted on July 12, 2024 by jenny

It makes me so angry to read this now, and to see what I learned from a pair of alcoholics about who I was and what I should do with my life.  From my journal for April 26, 1996: Talked … Continue reading →

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“Dear Jenny, I do love you… “

Posted on July 11, 2024 by jenny

This was written in June 2004 and posted in  September 2011. I read it and was almost moved to tears by the sentence beginning “Dear Jenny, I do love you…” I feel like a very different person, looking at Jenny, … Continue reading →

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1996: Tangle of Fear and Grief and Anger

Posted on July 9, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for April 24, 1996 Driving over to Danville, Lynelle asked how I was doing, and I said I had been anxious until I got to the underlying sadness.  When I can feel the sadness, the anxiety goes … Continue reading →

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1996: Need to Deal with Damage to the Foundation

Posted on July 8, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for April 17, 1996 I’ve been thinking how out of touch I feel with that experience of spaciousness I had last year.  It’s as though it happened to a different person.  I feel like I’ve had all … Continue reading →

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1995: I Want to Feel that My Life has Meaning

Posted on July 7, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 19, 1995 Last night I decided that I wasn’t going to fight my depression because there’s a way in which it feels restful. …  I see that what I want is not to be happy, … Continue reading →

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1995: Menopause Questions

Posted on July 6, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 12, 1995 I was wondering if I’m doing the part of menopause that involves letting go of worldly accomplishments.  I see that I have been trying to push myself to be creative, imagining that I … Continue reading →

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