Category Archives: Journal

“Written in Blood”

Posted on February 23, 2016 by jenny

About the time I started doing Journey Into Courage in 1990, I began to make a book out of excerpts from my journal.  I was inspired by reading in The Courage to Heal that people often cut themselves as a … Continue reading →

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Frozen Terror

Posted on January 6, 2016 by jenny

from my journal for February 1971.  I was living in a big house in Portland Maine with my sister.  I was 29 years old and had left California after a breakdown and all I wanted to do was hide.  I had … Continue reading →

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End of 2015 Thoughts

Posted on January 2, 2016 by jenny

Journal for Thursday, December 31 On my notepad “suffering is from resistance to what is.”  I’m sitting on the couch with the dog next to me.  Snow outside covering the grounds and on branches.  It’s close to freezing, feels damp … Continue reading →

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Grace is Always Coming Down

Posted on December 25, 2015 by jenny

News flash!  I just saw that the Jenny Erica sees is big enough to hold the Jenny I experience, hold her with compassion, and tell her “You are OK just as you are.  You don’t have to “heal” or “be … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Fit the Pieces Together

Posted on December 23, 2015 by jenny

A good session with Erica.  I drove home feeling much better — a warmth in my belly — and did my best to savor it.  We talked about the child needing to see themselves in the gaze of a loving … Continue reading →

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My Work

Posted on December 18, 2015 by jenny

[This is a very long post.  I’ve done my best to edit it, but I’ve also had to add explanatory material.  I’ve put in comments from the present, in square brackets and italics.  I think the length of it is … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Find the Support I Need

Posted on November 14, 2015 by jenny

From my journal for October 10 Had trouble going to sleep & woke early.  Lying there, counting my breaths, I had a momentary qualm “what is the point of my life?”  I realize I usually ask it intellectually, when it’s … Continue reading →

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Shame Attack about Self-care

Posted on October 24, 2015 by jenny

After I posted the piece about my morning routine, I had a shame attack: “How can I complain when there are so many people who have much harder mornings…”  I was very upset at posting that material and was going … Continue reading →

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Morning Routine

Posted on October 19, 2015 by jenny

I’ve been wondering why it takes me so long to get started in the morning.  Last Sunday, when Victoria asked the choir to come 15 minutes early, I thought it’s hard enough to get there at the usual time of … Continue reading →

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Broken

Posted on September 20, 2015 by jenny

I was typing up the entry from Thursday, August 18.  I usually try to type them about month after they were written.  This blew me away because it’s such an obvious lead-in to the post about the “flash” of knowledge … Continue reading →

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