Category Archives: Depression

Depression

Posted on June 27, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2009) I’m pretty badly depressed.  It’s a little scary to be so depressed.  I remind myself that both Karen and Caryn are away, and that I had three good days last week. The session with B was … Continue reading →

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The Airplane Phobia

Posted on June 23, 2011 by jenny

Actually it wasn’t a phobia about planes or flying, it was about noise.  Here in Franconia there is a small airport and in the summer they give glider rides.  The plane that tows the glider makes a louder, longer, more … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on June 10, 2011 by jenny

(Written in January 2010, but reflects just how I’m feeling today, June 10, 2011) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty bad time.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, you are needed on the planet at this time.  … Continue reading →

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Bad Night

Posted on May 30, 2011 by jenny

(Written in January 2009) A bad night.  Yesterday was pretty horrible.  Long stretches of no meaning, waves of discouragement and despair.  I keep bringing my mind to the present moment, or to a prayer or affirmation.  It takes everything I’ve … Continue reading →

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“feel good about myself”

Posted on May 25, 2011 by jenny

In April of 1976 I went to a women’s weekend retreat. It was very illuminating for me.  Afterward I did a number of therapy sessions with Phyllis. This is what I wrote in 1976: the core of the weekend for … Continue reading →

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Heart Hurting

Posted on May 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Woke up with my heart hurting.  At first I made it be that I was bad and selfish and stingy that my heart was so cramped.  Then I thought perhaps my heart hurt so much because … Continue reading →

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Bleak Again

Posted on April 24, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2006) Bleak again.  No warmth anywhere.  I feel desperately alone, yet I don’t want anybody to come for fear they would be disapproving and rejecting.  This is the cold of rejection.  This is outer darkness.  I’m outside … Continue reading →

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Frozen

Posted on April 23, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2006) Woke early & couldn’t sleep again.  Feeling bleak.  Feeling cold.  Feeling like there is no love anywhere in the universe.  It’s all cold and dark.  I try to hold it gently, softly, to give it space … Continue reading →

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Sad & Scared

Posted on April 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2011) I looked out at the empty bird feeder and remembered the time I was angry at myself because I couldn’t fill the hummingbird feeder.  I feel a huge wave of remorse for having treated myself so … Continue reading →

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Inner Child

Posted on April 10, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2005) Read some of Getting Through the Day.  It didn’t help yesterday, but today it’s clear that this level of despair is that of a child who has tried everything and given up.  She’s curled up in … Continue reading →

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