Category Archives: Depression

The Core of Trauma

Posted on January 24, 2016 by jenny

This last week has been really tough.  On Tuesday I had the hardest, most painful therapy session that I’ve ever experienced.  Before I drove down I wrote: Damn!  I’m starting to feel scared.  Part of it may be that there’s … Continue reading →

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Living with PTSD

Posted on January 23, 2016 by jenny

Erica suggested I take one of my affirmations/realizations and write from it.  I chose “Depression is a big deal.  It has taken courage, strength and determination to create as much of a life as I have.”  I became aware of … Continue reading →

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Frozen Terror

Posted on January 6, 2016 by jenny

from my journal for February 1971.  I was living in a big house in Portland Maine with my sister.  I was 29 years old and had left California after a breakdown and all I wanted to do was hide.  I had … Continue reading →

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Kinship

Posted on January 4, 2016 by jenny

I feel like I’m at the end.  I have no energy to fight this depression with.  Well that’s not totally true.  I got out of bed.  I did my breakfast routine.  I went to Father Greg on YouTube hoping he … Continue reading →

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End of 2015 Thoughts

Posted on January 2, 2016 by jenny

Journal for Thursday, December 31 On my notepad “suffering is from resistance to what is.”  I’m sitting on the couch with the dog next to me.  Snow outside covering the grounds and on branches.  It’s close to freezing, feels damp … Continue reading →

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It’s REALLY Not My Fault

Posted on December 26, 2015 by jenny

Had another realization which had to do with really getting it that my depression is not my fault.  Somehow I’ve always assumed that because I couldn’t make it go away, I had to be “holding on” to it.  This is … Continue reading →

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Depression and Suicide

Posted on December 20, 2015 by jenny

I watched two TED talks today, one about depression and one about suicide.  Both spoke about how our culture has placed a stigma on both depression and suicide, which leaves people dealing with these things horribly isolated. Here are the … Continue reading →

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My Work

Posted on December 18, 2015 by jenny

[This is a very long post.  I’ve done my best to edit it, but I’ve also had to add explanatory material.  I’ve put in comments from the present, in square brackets and italics.  I think the length of it is … Continue reading →

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Depression

Posted on December 4, 2015 by jenny

From my journal for Thursday, December 3: Raining.  Bleak.  Nothing to look forward to.  A chill in my heart.  Bring compassion to my chilled heart.  Something stops me.  I stay frozen.  I put my arms around the frozen child.  She … Continue reading →

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Ongoing Struggle

Posted on November 26, 2015 by jenny

Went down to see Barbara.  She was depressed too.  We took the dogs for a walk.  We watched Bernie’s speech to Liberty University.  It was heartening. When I came home I got sucked into the parenting book.  Couldn’t stop reading, … Continue reading →

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