Category Archives: Healing

Re-negotiation

Posted on March 30, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Karen was very helpful.  I told her about all my contradictory feelings — even saw a kind of collage of torn & colored paper — joy about Obama, anger & sadness that I wake up with, … Continue reading →

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Anger

Posted on March 28, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Thinking about Liv Whitelaw the Outlaw, in Elizabeth George’s Playing for the Ashes, and her anger and pain and her need to feel powerful and her self-destructiveness, and wondering if that arose in reaction to a … Continue reading →

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“You were never that way”

Posted on March 18, 2011 by jenny

My mother did not know how to forgive, and so I learned that I was unforgivable.  If I did something “wrong” there was no way I could make amends.  This resulted in some odd behavior that I see as shameful … Continue reading →

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Redemption

Posted on March 17, 2011 by jenny

I’ve been thinking about redemption since I wrote yesterday’s post.  It’s not a word I use.  But it’s the only word I can think of to describe those moments of relief when one’s most shameful secret is told to a … Continue reading →

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Elizabeth Goudge

Posted on March 16, 2011 by jenny

Elizabeth Goudge is a British writer who published 16 novels from 1936 to 1970.  She also wrote short stories, children’s books, and books about Christianity.  I was lucky to find her during a period of severe depression, and lucky that … Continue reading →

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“Severe Practice”

Posted on March 11, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Kevin said the fall at the beginning of the Nia training was a bigger injury than I realized, that he had worried about me.  (I fell on some wet steps, such that the corner of a … Continue reading →

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Radiant Priestess

Posted on March 3, 2011 by jenny

(This was written in July 2008, just before I crashed really badly.  I had been feeling so much better, and I thought I had “really gotten there” i.e. arrived at a place of health and strength.  But I was actually … Continue reading →

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Treasures in Heaven

Posted on February 21, 2011 by jenny

(Written in January 2011) -25°.  A white world and a clear sky.  The waning moon in a clear sky looks like a jewel lying on silk, an opal maybe.  There are no words for how beautiful it is.  As the … Continue reading →

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Bleak

Posted on February 19, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2008) Woke feeling bleak.  Heart like a stone.  I can’t tell if I’m tired or if I’m depressed.  I just don’t want to do anything.  I read in Animals in Spirit: “Death means wanting to be peaceful; … Continue reading →

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Enjoying the Happiness of Others

Posted on February 18, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2011) Had a moment of revelation yesterday.  Driving through the Notch I saw skiers coming down Gary’s and Zoomer, bright waves of snow behind them.  First I felt jealous (I haven’t skied for years because of balance … Continue reading →

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