Category Archives: Trauma

Treating the Pain like an Honored Guest

Posted on August 31, 2013 by jenny

Friday My heart aches.  This is the other side of loving Bella.  I accept the ache as the price of loving.  I would not choose to refuse the love in order to avoid the pain.  I put my arms around … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on August 28, 2013 by jenny

(Written in May 2009) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m in pretty rough shape.  A little scared, a little fragile, a little depressed.  I’m feeling cold and distant, and don’t have much hope for the future.  This struggle out of depression … Continue reading →

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The Core of Trauma

Posted on July 4, 2013 by jenny

(Written in August 2011) I told Eleanor about how I’m feeling, waves of discouragement, everything I think of doing feels like an impossible chore, I just want to lie down and quit.  She said “This is the core of trauma.”  … Continue reading →

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Perspective

Posted on May 25, 2013 by jenny

A long spell of feeling happy and successful, a person with a meaningful life and worthwhile work to do, has make me aware of how much pain I’ve had in my life.  It was a constant struggle to get through … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on April 24, 2013 by jenny

(Written in December 2005) Ann Staffeld called to tell me a story: she was at Church and a man asked if she had been in a movie.  Turned out he’s a batterer, doing a program, and the video of Journey … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 20, 2013 by jenny

(Written in May 2005) The work with Brad was pendulating between the cold grey frozen place, and the colorful place filled with life.  I described the “World of Diversity” and Brad said I had brought it out of all the … Continue reading →

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Smashed Life

Posted on April 19, 2013 by jenny

I’m finding it fascinating that there are so many passages in 2005 that resonate for me now: the loss and grief and pain, the depth of the wound that’s been opened, the way the meaning drains out of my life.  … Continue reading →

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Wild and Precious Life

Posted on April 17, 2013 by jenny

(Written in August 2005) I was thinking about the line from Mary Oliver: “what will you do with your one wild and precious life?” and how it always makes me feel bad, like I have wasted mine.  Well, have I … Continue reading →

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Dealing with Rejection

Posted on April 16, 2013 by jenny

(Written in October 2005) This morning I woke up with an ache in my heart and realized I was angry with myself for not being beautiful.  Then my heart went out to me, and that helped a lot. DAMMIT! Somewhere, … Continue reading →

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Abandonment Trauma

Posted on April 15, 2013 by jenny

Saturday I went to a workshop with Sal Rachele.  He did some guided meditations.  One of them helped me get back in touch with that feeling of being supported by the universe.  So of course I was feeling enough better … Continue reading →

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