Category Archives: Trauma

Red Woman

Posted on May 8, 2015 by jenny

I’ve written about the “Red Woman” many times, she’s described in the page about my paintings, but I’ve never actually told the full story. Kripalu for Women & Yoga Written October 31, 1989 During body work with Debra, I was … Continue reading →

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Confusion

Posted on May 6, 2015 by jenny

Woke up feeling uncomfortable.  Not depressed, not scared, not contented.  Not satisfied.  I think I was really confused by what Erica said.  We were talking about me starting a women’s writing/support group.  I told her about my conversation with Yvette, … Continue reading →

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Grieving

Posted on April 2, 2015 by jenny

Written the same day: I think the session with Erica was a good one.  I cried a lot, didn’t say very much.  Mostly about wanting a new dog & grieving Bella.  Also grieving that I hadn’t really been able to … Continue reading →

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Confusion and Conflict

Posted on March 14, 2015 by jenny

This post is put together from a series of journal entries.  It shows how writing in my journal helps me process information. Tuesday, March 10 Erica’s waiting room.  Feeling sad & discouraged.  Trying to understand what caused this. I told … Continue reading →

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Turnaround

Posted on March 8, 2015 by jenny

Wow.  What a turnaround.  I don’t feel any of the pain or confusion I felt two days ago.  One part of me was really beginning to get it that things are still there even when I get disconnected from them: … Continue reading →

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Tough Session

Posted on March 7, 2015 by jenny

Yesterday was really tough.  I got to Erica and just cried.  I told her I was confused, had no sense of priority, and lost the sense of a solid core, did not feel connected to her.  She said all those … Continue reading →

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Deep Work

Posted on February 16, 2015 by jenny

The work I’ve been doing with Erica has required me to go deep in myself and try to get what’s going on there.  It’s a non-verbal part of myself, so usually I get a feeling and then try to translate … Continue reading →

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My “Drug of Choice”

Posted on February 10, 2015 by jenny

I learned to read before I even went to Kindergarten.  I think mother must have taught and encouraged me, one of the few times she did.  I discovered very early that reading allowed me to escape from my life.  We … Continue reading →

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The Body Keeps the Score

Posted on February 9, 2015 by jenny

Bessel Van Der Kolk is one of my heroes.  I went to the first weekend workshop he ever gave at Kripalu, wondering what such a high-powered academic was doing at that center for yoga and health.  Turns out he had … Continue reading →

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“Letting Go” of Old Beliefs

Posted on February 6, 2015 by jenny

Recently I heard someone talking about “imagine waking up in the morning full of enthusiasm!”  and something about “letting go of those negative beliefs,” and I found myself angry.  It’s just not as easy as that. My own experience has … Continue reading →

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