Category Archives: Trauma

Person Who Lives Outside All of the Boxes

Posted on June 16, 2019 by jenny

Written on May 15, I’m just typing it up and think WOW.  How did I miss this?  Another message from the one who knows to the part of me who doesn’t know yet. “What name is big enough for me?” … Continue reading →

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Collective Trauma

Posted on June 12, 2019 by jenny

At the beginning of June, this description came in an email from “Humanity’s Team.”  It’s the introduction to a program about healing trauma. “When you find that in the last few months you’re shakier, more irritable, more anxious, feeling less … Continue reading →

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Beyond Exhaustion

Posted on June 4, 2019 by jenny

from my journal, June 4 3rd cup of tea.  Exhausted after Mocha’s morning walk.  I realize that I am totally physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted.  I think the only people who can understand are those who are living with chronic fatigue … Continue reading →

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“Terrified” from July, 2015

Posted on May 13, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been reading through my blog, and finding it encouraging.  So many times in the past when I was having a very hard time.  I can see that I’m doing much better now, despite the sense that something is lacking … Continue reading →

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Wanting to Live my “Big Life”

Posted on April 27, 2019 by jenny

This was originally posted on September 16, 2011.  It’s such a good analysis of my typical breakdown.  It was also a little shocking to find a relatively serious breakdown in 2003.  I always think of the one in 2008, and … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on April 20, 2019 by jenny

(Written in January 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling sad and discouraged: about the losses of my life, about the state of the world, about my lack of energy that keeps me from taking action to support the … Continue reading →

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Deep Surrender

Posted on April 7, 2019 by jenny

From my journal.  At the end of March I had no definite diagnosis for the pain in my back which was making it very difficult to walk, bend down, lift anything heavy. Saturday, March 30 I’m sore all over. Nothing … Continue reading →

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Step 2 Again Again

Posted on March 30, 2019 by jenny

I have been in constant pain in my left hip for a while now.  Mostly it’s down around 2, but when it really hurts, it’s a 10 on a scale of 1-10.  Fortunately, it doesn’t last long.  But it’s very … Continue reading →

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Siege of Poor Health & Bad Luck

Posted on March 19, 2019 by jenny

On February 10 I got the bad cold that’s been going around.  I had it for two weeks.  Then I developed an endless cough.  The cold was over, and there wasn’t any infection.  The doctor prescribed an inhaler that’s used … Continue reading →

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The Story of my Life that Works

Posted on March 4, 2019 by jenny

From my journal for June 3, 1996 But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my childhood, results in me feeling … Continue reading →

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