Category Archives: Present Day

Step One: admitted that my life is unmanageable

Posted on February 8, 2017 by jenny

Written a month ago, but explains very well what I’m feeling now. Feeling a little wobbly and a little nauseous.  Gosh — I feel scattered and confused.  What does it need?  A container.  Can’t seem to focus or to collect … Continue reading →

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Utterly Defeated by Life

Posted on February 8, 2017 by jenny

I’m feeling utterly defeated by life.  It takes every scrap of will I have to get up and go through my morning routine.  I no longer do my stretches because I take the dog out during that time.  I’m pretty … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Lift My Heart

Posted on February 2, 2017 by jenny

Rosten, quoted by Fox, in Hildegard:  “The purpose of life is not to be happy.  The purpose of life is to matter; to have it make a difference that you lived at all.”  p xi I like that a lot, … Continue reading →

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Endure without Relief

Posted on January 29, 2017 by jenny

Grey again and another dusting of snow.  It feels like it has been like this for weeks. Woke up feeling very lonely.  Tried without success to feel love for people I know I love.  So instead of avoiding I have … Continue reading →

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Attachment Wound

Posted on January 9, 2017 by jenny

Ache in my heart.  Ache in my whole torso.  Empty.  Without meaning.  I think “It doesn’t have to be this way.”  I remember being at Kindred Spirits and feeling OK. Erica called this “the attachment wound,” this being alone, without meaning, … Continue reading →

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To be Loved or Hurt?

Posted on December 15, 2016 by jenny

Monday I told Lynelle that I couldn’t imagine that Erica could help me.  I have an appointment with her tomorrow.  Lynelle suggested I have a conversation with the part that is trying to protect me.  Who is the one in … Continue reading →

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END OF THE LINE: THE WOMEN OF STANDING ROCK

Posted on December 7, 2016 by jenny

Quote from the fundraising page for a documentary being made by Shannon Kring. As you can see, they have already got the amount they asked for. “It’s very simple. We have to have water for life. And so we’re petitioning … Continue reading →

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Some Tremendous Compassion

Posted on December 5, 2016 by jenny

Woke up feeling bleak again.  Very disappointing when the news is good — the DAPL is stopped for the moment.  Well, I hope there will be some serious rethinking, and in particular a serious study of environmental consequences. which has … Continue reading →

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Hope

Posted on November 25, 2016 by jenny

“Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism.  It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out.” — Václav Havel, Disturbing the Peace I’m … Continue reading →

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PEACE. LOVE. JUSTICE. MERCY. TRUTH. HOPE.

Posted on November 23, 2016 by jenny

PEACE.  LOVE.  JUSTICE.  MERCY.  TRUTH.  HOPE. This has been my mantra during these days of darkness.  I wanted to put a positive intention out there, and to remind myself of the things I really value.  But I have crashed really … Continue reading →

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