Category Archives: Present Day

My Adolescent Self

Posted on May 17, 2017 by jenny

Sunday I had been thinking about some words from my journal for the 60’s  “Well tranquillized for complicated return to P.A.”  I don’t remember what happened that caused me to run to my aunt & uncle in Hillsborough. but I think … Continue reading →

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The “Right Hand” Version

Posted on April 15, 2017 by jenny

Which means more logical and rational than the previous one. The fall happened in my house.  Paying attention to the fragments I was juggling, I failed to see my feet and tripped over the lintel.  I hit my chin and … Continue reading →

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Bababadalgharagh…..denenthurnuk!

Posted on April 14, 2017 by jenny

Friday, April 14 I wrote this this morning , trying to understand what is going on in my psyche.  It actually produced something that helped make sense of the many issues I am juggling.  “Keep the pen moving” is an … Continue reading →

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Insight —> Endurance —> Action

Posted on April 1, 2017 by jenny

I spent my time with Erica talking about the good things that I’ve been doing spontaneously: taking apart the puzzle that’s been there for three months, playing music that I haven’t listened to for years, starting to meditate regularly, being … Continue reading →

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Healing from the Bottom Up

Posted on March 25, 2017 by jenny

I want to write about what’s been happening lately.  When I came back from the visit to Kendal, I knew I could create a good life for myself there.  I put it in that form without really thinking about it, … Continue reading →

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Full of Wounds and Still on my Feet

Posted on March 19, 2017 by jenny

This morning, whenever I stop writing, I’m in a place of emptiness.  I feel like I have absolutely nothing to write about.  I suppose I could see it as the creative void instead of being scared of it.  It’s basically … Continue reading →

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Pictures of Little Jenny

Posted on March 4, 2017 by jenny

Wednesday, March 1 Tough morning.  Very hard to get up.  I’m feeling grief — but it’s more stuck grief — o god do I have to do this again?  I prayed for help but nothing came.  Yesterday’s session with Erica … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on February 18, 2017 by jenny

I don’t know when I stopped asking my Guides and Guardian Spirits for guidance.  I didn’t stop consciously for some reason, I just stopped and only realized it when a lot of time had gone by.  Recently I was with friends, … Continue reading →

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Resistance to Feeling My Pain

Posted on February 16, 2017 by jenny

Saturday, January 14 Woke up early feeling scared.  Not terror — this is ordinary scared.  In fact I’m starting to wonder if how I’ve been feeling the last couple of days isn’t how I used to feel all the time. … Continue reading →

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Trying to Integrate the Past

Posted on February 16, 2017 by jenny

Thursday, January 5 Feeling a little cranky, angry? unhappy?  No, I think there’s anger there.  The old anger “I have worked so hard for so long…” I’m lost and confused.  I don’t understand what’s going on with me.  I’m not … Continue reading →

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