Category Archives: Journal

Perspective

Posted on May 25, 2013 by jenny

A long spell of feeling happy and successful, a person with a meaningful life and worthwhile work to do, has make me aware of how much pain I’ve had in my life.  It was a constant struggle to get through … Continue reading →

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A Day in the Life

Posted on December 9, 2012 by jenny

“Today, like every other day, we wake up empty/and frightened.”   I woke up with that heavy grey, tired feeling.  I felt disappointed and discouraged to be waking up like this again again.  Then I remembered that my work is to … Continue reading →

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September 1998: The Story You “Haven’t Told Yet”, the WHOLE story

Posted on September 25, 2012 by jenny

Another gem from converting old journals.  This must have been written after the retreat with Deena Metzger.  A lot of the writing was done in the retreat, but some of it was done elsewhere.  It’s a different way of looking … Continue reading →

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April 1994: Keeper of the Calendar

Posted on August 4, 2012 by jenny

More from my continuing project with my past journals. Written in April 1994 Imagine a protagonist who is depressed and despairing, who doesn’t know what to do about it, whose life “looks fine” from the outside.  What would be the … Continue reading →

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“Archeology of the Soul”

Posted on August 3, 2012 by jenny

As I continue the project of converting old journals, I find surprising validation for how hard I was working, and for my intuitive sense that there was more to my story.  So amazing to read of my struggles to understand … Continue reading →

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September 1993: Dialogue with Journal

Posted on July 24, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 1993) I talked about the feeling I got from Verna, I once described it in a journal entry calling her a cannibal, that there was something I had that she wanted, that she would just suck it … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on July 23, 2012 by jenny

Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’ve been feeling a little down and lost, not quite sure what I want to do next.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, “down and lost” is a very natural reaction to being so busy … Continue reading →

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February 1993: Ability to Respond

Posted on July 22, 2012 by jenny

(Written in February 1993) I have more thoughts about what I was writing about yesterday.  I was reading in ’86 about the visit from Beverly’s friend Victoria, how she thought she “always wanted to be right” and was putting herself … Continue reading →

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February 1993: Good Motives

Posted on July 21, 2012 by jenny

After reading what Charlotte said in her letter, I found myself being able to see good motives behind actions that I had thought were selfishly motivated.  Here’s an entry from February 93: Yesterday I discovered that good and positive and … Continue reading →

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Positive Self-image

Posted on July 20, 2012 by jenny

In doing my project of converting old journals into a newer word processor, I have discovered many things.   One is a letter from Charlotte (the mother of my ex-husband) in response to the collection of excerpts from my journal that … Continue reading →

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