Category Archives: Healing

Grief Work

Posted on April 14, 2015 by jenny

Friday Notes from call with Erica: She can hear from my voice how deep a place I was coming from. In the last session, being so quiet, allows presence & connection when it’s quiet.  Mother-child dyad, seeing a loving gaze, … Continue reading →

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I Can’t See Who I Am

Posted on March 28, 2015 by jenny

I told Erica about seeing the wounded animal by the road.  It’s one of my worst nightmares, to see an animal so wounded that it can’t live, and not being able to do anything about it. I think it’s because … Continue reading →

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Why It Takes So Long

Posted on March 16, 2015 by jenny

I’m thinking of the many times I’ve come to an exciting new understanding of myself, and then on re-reading my journal I discover that I’ve made the same discovery several years ago, and a few years before that, with apparent … Continue reading →

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Working with the Conflict

Posted on March 15, 2015 by jenny

From my journal, continued: Thursday, March 12 There’s a temptation to believe that I don’t enjoy my life, either because I’m not really making a contribution or because I’m refusing to enjoy my life as it is.  That makes me … Continue reading →

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Confusion and Conflict

Posted on March 14, 2015 by jenny

This post is put together from a series of journal entries.  It shows how writing in my journal helps me process information. Tuesday, March 10 Erica’s waiting room.  Feeling sad & discouraged.  Trying to understand what caused this. I told … Continue reading →

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Turnaround

Posted on March 8, 2015 by jenny

Wow.  What a turnaround.  I don’t feel any of the pain or confusion I felt two days ago.  One part of me was really beginning to get it that things are still there even when I get disconnected from them: … Continue reading →

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Tough Session

Posted on March 7, 2015 by jenny

Yesterday was really tough.  I got to Erica and just cried.  I told her I was confused, had no sense of priority, and lost the sense of a solid core, did not feel connected to her.  She said all those … Continue reading →

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Deep Work

Posted on February 16, 2015 by jenny

The work I’ve been doing with Erica has required me to go deep in myself and try to get what’s going on there.  It’s a non-verbal part of myself, so usually I get a feeling and then try to translate … Continue reading →

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The Body Keeps the Score

Posted on February 9, 2015 by jenny

Bessel Van Der Kolk is one of my heroes.  I went to the first weekend workshop he ever gave at Kripalu, wondering what such a high-powered academic was doing at that center for yoga and health.  Turns out he had … Continue reading →

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“Letting Go” of Old Beliefs

Posted on February 6, 2015 by jenny

Recently I heard someone talking about “imagine waking up in the morning full of enthusiasm!”  and something about “letting go of those negative beliefs,” and I found myself angry.  It’s just not as easy as that. My own experience has … Continue reading →

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