Category Archives: Trauma

New Dog?

Posted on October 31, 2014 by jenny

I am thinking about getting a rescue dog.  He was in a situation where the owner had more dogs than they could care for.  He probably wasn’t let out of his crate very often.  He isn’t house trained and is … Continue reading →

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“I was in trouble and nobody noticed”

Posted on October 29, 2014 by jenny

Last month I had a bad headache and Lynelle asked me what I was feeling.  I said “Nothing” so she asked what the baby was feeling.  I tuned in and got the words “angry” and “stuck.”  Later I asked the … Continue reading →

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The Descent into Hell

Posted on October 20, 2014 by jenny

This piece is from a retreat I did with Deena on Martha’s Vineyard in September 1998.  Deena was using as a theme of the story of Psyche and Eros.  The descent into the Underworld is part of Psyche’s story.  I … Continue reading →

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Muffy

Posted on October 15, 2014 by jenny

Muffy is a little stuffed dog I bought when missing Bella got to be too much for me.  He is a “transitional object,” like the “security blanket” a child uses when she is learning that she’s apart from her mother, an … Continue reading →

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Finally Able to See Lifelong Pain

Posted on September 9, 2014 by jenny

I want to write about how feeling stronger is allowing me to see the pain I was in for most of my life.  I had no idea.  I thought I was “too sensitive,” defective in some way, a coward that … Continue reading →

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Script for Journey into Courage

Posted on September 8, 2014 by jenny

JENNY: FEAR SECTION Jenny is sitting on the floor, writing in her journal. Start tape (Simon & Garfunkel) I started writing a journal when I was a teenager because I had no one I could talk to about my pain. … Continue reading →

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Written in Blood

Posted on September 8, 2014 by jenny

Church was good, but when I left I felt oddly lost.  It was like I had dropped all the psychic stuff I’ve been processing.  When I got home I didn’t know what to do.  Finally I had lunch, did a … Continue reading →

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Step One Again Again

Posted on August 23, 2014 by jenny

After the emotional blowout of Thursday, when I told Karen how the work on my car was going on and on and not getting done and cried and cried in her office for most of the session, I collapsed.  I … Continue reading →

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A New Stage of Healing

Posted on July 22, 2014 by jenny

I started a new medication in May.  It’s one of a class of medications that are mood stabilizers.  I felt very odd after taking it for the first time, and the same sort of oddness each time I raised the … Continue reading →

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Forgiveness

Posted on July 5, 2014 by jenny

Someone told me recently that she thought I should forgive my mom.  I’ve been thinking about that.  I’ve forgiven her many times and then later found that some tight cramp in my psyche was still there.  Recently I’ve been thinking … Continue reading →

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