Category Archives: Present Day

Inner Gothic Teen Comes Out

Posted on November 8, 2014 by jenny

I’ve been reading Clarissa Pinkola Estes “Untie the Strong Woman,” the chapter where she talks about working with teenage girls in prison.  She called them her “Blackbirds.”  I wonder about a part of me that’s an angry and defiant teenager.  … Continue reading →

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New Dog?

Posted on October 31, 2014 by jenny

I am thinking about getting a rescue dog.  He was in a situation where the owner had more dogs than they could care for.  He probably wasn’t let out of his crate very often.  He isn’t house trained and is … Continue reading →

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Muffy

Posted on October 15, 2014 by jenny

Muffy is a little stuffed dog I bought when missing Bella got to be too much for me.  He is a “transitional object,” like the “security blanket” a child uses when she is learning that she’s apart from her mother, an … Continue reading →

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October Sadness

Posted on October 11, 2014 by jenny

So sad yesterday.  Missing Bella, missing Erica if truth be told, and mourning for all the other wounds opened up.  October in the rain, tho it wasn’t raining, just grey. Met Lynelle in Hunger Mountain Co-op in Montpelier.  I’d picked … Continue reading →

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Session with Erica

Posted on October 1, 2014 by jenny

I had a session with Erica yesterday.  I’ve been seeing her since June, but because she was away a lot during the summer, I just had to hold on.  When she finally got back for good, it took a while … Continue reading →

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Baby Jenny Opens Up

Posted on September 22, 2014 by jenny

Because of the work I have been doing on the earliest part of my life, some very new experiences have been happening to me.  And memories of good times. This little girl is looking at the world with excited, expectant … Continue reading →

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More Recent Versions of Jenny

Posted on September 20, 2014 by jenny

This is the one I posted on Facebook: I was clowning out in front of Neskaya, and somebody took these pictures:   I think these are more accurate versions of what I really look like.

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God Speaks to Job

Posted on September 19, 2014 by jenny

And now for something completely different: Gird up thy loins like a man; for I will demand of thee, and answer thou me.  Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth?  Hath the rain a father?  From … Continue reading →

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Finally Able to See Lifelong Pain

Posted on September 9, 2014 by jenny

I want to write about how feeling stronger is allowing me to see the pain I was in for most of my life.  I had no idea.  I thought I was “too sensitive,” defective in some way, a coward that … Continue reading →

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Written in Blood

Posted on September 8, 2014 by jenny

Church was good, but when I left I felt oddly lost.  It was like I had dropped all the psychic stuff I’ve been processing.  When I got home I didn’t know what to do.  Finally I had lunch, did a … Continue reading →

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