Category Archives: Present Day

My Life Has Meaning

Posted on May 21, 2015 by jenny

I can’t remember the session with Erica well enough to write.  I did most of the talking — talking very fast, getting lost in stories and forgetting the point.  I don’t even remember what I was trying to tell her.  … Continue reading →

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In Transition

Posted on May 17, 2015 by jenny

Thursday Told Karen about waking up feeling not quite myself, unfamiliar, on two days. Yesterday morning I realized I am in transition — letting go of the old trapeze, new one not yet visible in the fog.  Karen said that’s … Continue reading →

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Journal Writing

Posted on May 10, 2015 by jenny

I posted the piece on the Red Woman yesterday.  I realize that though I’ve talked about her in my blog, I’ve never told the whole story.  I quote from my journal entry, in 1989, about her first appearance.  Setting it … Continue reading →

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New Dog!

Posted on April 25, 2015 by jenny

I’ve been searching for a new dog since before Christmas, without success and some painful disappointments.  At first it was too hard to look.  I was going to go to a shelter with a friend and got sick at the … Continue reading →

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Grief Work

Posted on April 14, 2015 by jenny

Friday Notes from call with Erica: She can hear from my voice how deep a place I was coming from. In the last session, being so quiet, allows presence & connection when it’s quiet.  Mother-child dyad, seeing a loving gaze, … Continue reading →

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Grieving

Posted on April 2, 2015 by jenny

Written the same day: I think the session with Erica was a good one.  I cried a lot, didn’t say very much.  Mostly about wanting a new dog & grieving Bella.  Also grieving that I hadn’t really been able to … Continue reading →

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I Can’t See Who I Am

Posted on March 28, 2015 by jenny

I told Erica about seeing the wounded animal by the road.  It’s one of my worst nightmares, to see an animal so wounded that it can’t live, and not being able to do anything about it. I think it’s because … Continue reading →

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Why It Takes So Long

Posted on March 16, 2015 by jenny

I’m thinking of the many times I’ve come to an exciting new understanding of myself, and then on re-reading my journal I discover that I’ve made the same discovery several years ago, and a few years before that, with apparent … Continue reading →

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Working with the Conflict

Posted on March 15, 2015 by jenny

From my journal, continued: Thursday, March 12 There’s a temptation to believe that I don’t enjoy my life, either because I’m not really making a contribution or because I’m refusing to enjoy my life as it is.  That makes me … Continue reading →

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Confusion and Conflict

Posted on March 14, 2015 by jenny

This post is put together from a series of journal entries.  It shows how writing in my journal helps me process information. Tuesday, March 10 Erica’s waiting room.  Feeling sad & discouraged.  Trying to understand what caused this. I told … Continue reading →

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