Category Archives: Present Day

My Work

Posted on December 18, 2015 by jenny

[This is a very long post.  I’ve done my best to edit it, but I’ve also had to add explanatory material.  I’ve put in comments from the present, in square brackets and italics.  I think the length of it is … Continue reading →

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The Importance of Community

Posted on November 26, 2015 by jenny

This is from G-Dog and the Homeboys, a book about Father Greg Boyle and his work with the gangs of East Los Angeles.  It’s written by Celeste Fremon. Greg says “I used to say that the caring adult who pays attention … Continue reading →

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Refuge

Posted on November 18, 2015 by jenny

Reading “Necessary as Blood.”  Reading doesn’t seem to help, I still feel the cold weight in my chest. “… home to me was certainly never anything remotely material.  It consisted, I have decided, in something I sensed as refuge: an … Continue reading →

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Lost in an Indifferent Universe

Posted on November 18, 2015 by jenny

Woke up this morning feeling lost in  an indifferent universe.  There is no God or spirit or meaning here.  I’ve been reading The Shack over the last few days.  I’ve read it several times.  I don’t like the Christian correctness … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Find the Support I Need

Posted on November 14, 2015 by jenny

From my journal for October 10 Had trouble going to sleep & woke early.  Lying there, counting my breaths, I had a momentary qualm “what is the point of my life?”  I realize I usually ask it intellectually, when it’s … Continue reading →

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Morning Routine

Posted on October 19, 2015 by jenny

I’ve been wondering why it takes me so long to get started in the morning.  Last Sunday, when Victoria asked the choir to come 15 minutes early, I thought it’s hard enough to get there at the usual time of … Continue reading →

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Bleak. Discouraged.

Posted on October 5, 2015 by jenny

Monday, October 5 Bleak.  Very discouraged.  Got up to shit. To tired to make tea.  Went back to bed, but totally unable to think of anything that would make me feel better. Enjoying my life is not important.  Doing something … Continue reading →

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To Write Love On Her Arms

Posted on August 14, 2015 by jenny

Friday, August 14 I went to the Co-op in Montpelier hoping to get blueberries.  No blueberries!  what a disappointment!  And a little scary.  What happened to the blueberry crop? I was on my way to see my therapist Karen.  I … Continue reading →

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Grief Dances

Posted on July 16, 2015 by jenny

In my work with Erica, a lot of grief has come up.  It’s not all for my own broken life, it’s for all the suffering on our planet, all the beings being poisoned or driven out or raped, the gang … Continue reading →

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“In Touch With Who I Really Am”

Posted on July 15, 2015 by jenny

The two days of feeling “extraordinary” were an amazing experience.  They didn’t feel amazing at the time, nor did I feel “extraordinary.”  A good friend didn’t like the word “extraordinary,” she thought it referred to people who were an elite, … Continue reading →

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