Category Archives: Present Day

Siege of Poor Health & Bad Luck

Posted on March 19, 2019 by jenny

On February 10 I got the bad cold that’s been going around.  I had it for two weeks.  Then I developed an endless cough.  The cold was over, and there wasn’t any infection.  The doctor prescribed an inhaler that’s used … Continue reading →

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And What Remains?

Posted on January 31, 2019 by jenny

I read what I had first written to the group, and said something like “I have no idea what remains.”  One of them said “What is not yet discovered,” which was a huge help.  I remembered and added: Eve and … Continue reading →

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What is Gone?

Posted on January 26, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been going to a writing group about loss.  I wrote this at the third meeting.  But it was a clumsy scramble, and brought up contradictions that I didn’t have time to explore.  I want to explore the whole process … Continue reading →

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The Falcon’s Story

Posted on January 17, 2019 by jenny

January 10 I joined a group to write about loss.  When we entered the room, there was a table covered with images which we could use for writing if we didn’t want to follow the prompt.  I saw a picture … Continue reading →

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Really Doing OK Just as I Am

Posted on January 9, 2019 by jenny

Tuesday, January 1 This morning I was thinking about a conversation with God, where I asked what I needed to do to fulfill “His” will, and God said “You’re doing fine just as you are,” and I said “No, I want … Continue reading →

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Perspective on the Past

Posted on January 7, 2019 by jenny

I went back and started reading my journal for 2018.  Found a lot that was very interesting. June 16, 2018 The talk with Erica was good. I have been really puzzling over why other people see what I am doing as … Continue reading →

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“Should” versus My Inner Knowing

Posted on January 1, 2019 by jenny

From my journal for June 17, 1993 Trajectory broken again. My flight of the last couple of days ends in a crash. Once again feeling anxious and scared, wanting to hide. I retreated into typing my journals, and the first glider plane went … Continue reading →

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“Bombed-Out Village”

Posted on November 28, 2018 by jenny

Wednesday, November 21 Thinking about talking with Erica about starting to tolerate — and even enjoy — the ordinary.  For most of my life I was in too much psychic pain, I needed something fairly intense to hold my attention.  … Continue reading →

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“Shell Shock”

Posted on November 28, 2018 by jenny

Wednesday, November 14 My talk with Erica was really pretty amazing.  She was absolutely delighted that I was really beginning to let myself rest.  She said she had felt so protective of me at the beginning because I didn’t seem … Continue reading →

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Finding Support in the Ordinary

Posted on November 25, 2018 by jenny

From my journal for Oct 25 Guy in the hall on the big noisy vacuum.  I stop to comment on the little dog on the front.  He tells me it’s “Snoopy” and his nickname was Snoopy.  As I go on … Continue reading →

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