I’ve been feeling scared and lonely and forgetting to do things that might help like go to a movement class. It did help to come across this in my journal for 1997 to remind me of something I really did well.
From my journal for March 31, 1997
I went to teach Circle Dance which was quite lovely. Judy said I had choreographed a wonderful sequence of dances. I had bought Easter lilies and daffodils and tiny purple iris and set up an altar on the gold cloth. Kay said it was beautiful, that I always make beautiful altars. I wanted to do Somogyi Karikazo and we were too few to do it around that big altar, so we took one candle and the iris and danced around them. When we did the Pilgrim’s Dance, our shadows on the ceiling were like spirits dancing with us. Alynn said he’d danced at many places, and the energy at Neskaya was the best — it always felt like coming home.
Creating Neskaya is the most important thing I’ve done with my life. Sometimes there are things that call from the imaginal realm to be created in the physical realm, and the person who answers the call is not so much the creator as the midwife.