Category Archives: Depression

Taking Care of Myself IS my God-given Task

Posted on October 31, 2013 by jenny

For about the last five days I’ve been pretty bummed out and discouraged with myself for being stuck in depression.  Lynelle was able to help me shift it.  She told me that taking care of myself is my first priority.  … Continue reading →

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Living with PTSD

Posted on October 26, 2013 by jenny

It’s my 50th college reunion next year.  I have no wish to go, but I wrote a piece for the record book.  Thought I might as well post it here. I was nearly sixty when I realized I had been … Continue reading →

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The Down Side of “Pushing” Myself

Posted on October 23, 2013 by jenny

This morning I just didn’t want to go on.  I felt bad about dumping my negativity on my good friend Elizabeth — we always talk on Tuesday morning, and she has been a tremendous support for me — in spite … Continue reading →

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What’s the Point of Going On?

Posted on October 21, 2013 by jenny

I haven’t posted much to the blog in a long time.  Bella’s dying and death were difficult and full of conflict, complicated by the older traumas they triggered.  It was hard to write when I was depressed.  A lot of … Continue reading →

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“Big Heart”

Posted on August 26, 2013 by jenny

Written in April 2009 With Karen I talked about having trouble taking in the love that’s there for me.  Karen said I was “lovable” and I cried and turned away.  She said I have a big heart.  I thought how … Continue reading →

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How Depression Makes Life Harder

Posted on August 25, 2013 by jenny

Written in April 2009 during the Training in Women’s Ritual Dance, given at Neskaya by Laura Shannon. I feel so much grief and anger that I haven’t been able to participate and enjoy these days with this group of women.  … Continue reading →

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Ups & Downs

Posted on July 22, 2013 by jenny

Saturday Feeling pretty bummed out.  Understanding that part of this is being angry at myself for being depressed again, I try exploring it. Take a short step back and I see a person who is depressed so she can’t do … Continue reading →

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Hard Time

Posted on June 30, 2013 by jenny

I’ve been having a very hard time since Bella was diagnosed with bone cancer and not expected to live much longer.  A psychic told me the lump was not cancer and I should have it removed.  But after a first … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on April 26, 2013 by jenny

Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits,  I’m feeling so sad.  Maybe even depressed.  I think if I could cry I’d feel better.  I’m not even sure what it’s about. Dear Jenny, we love you very much, and we know you are … Continue reading →

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A Beacon for Hope

Posted on April 23, 2013 by jenny

My house has a cupola.  It’s not big enough to climb into,  but it has a light.  When they were building the house, and I was living across the street at Neskaya, Greg put a work light in the cupola so … Continue reading →

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