Category Archives: Healing

Journal Work

Posted on November 25, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) What would it be like if I believed that I was a good person who was doing her best to do good in the world? I can feel an odd softening, almost tingling in my heart. … Continue reading →

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More About “Story”

Posted on November 24, 2010 by jenny

What’s the difference between a story that helps you move on in your life, and one that’s just digging you deeper into the hole? Often a story that blames someone else for your difficulties is one that keeps you stuck. … Continue reading →

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Ritual of Letting Go

Posted on November 15, 2010 by jenny

Yesterday I did the ritual of letting go at Neskaya. I have a lot of negative beliefs about myself that I had learned from how my parents had treated me: that I was a bad person, selfish, was always making … Continue reading →

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Feeling Better

Posted on November 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) I felt so much better yesterday! It’s so amazing — to be able to enjoy my ordinary life instead of feeling like it’s an unpleasant chore. There were times in the morning when I could feel … Continue reading →

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Stories

Posted on November 3, 2010 by jenny

I’ve been thinking a lot about stories recently. Stories that strengthen us, and stories that just dig us deeper into the mud. It’s very important to be able to distinguish helpful stories from unhelpful ones, because it’s the story that … Continue reading →

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Good Experiences

Posted on October 30, 2010 by jenny

(Written in March 2008) At Kripalu. Being on the 4th floor has meant a lot of running up & down stairs. Such a relief to be without fear and without depression. Yes, I’m taking a break, a break from pushpushpush, … Continue reading →

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“Don’t Care”

Posted on October 26, 2010 by jenny

Karen, my therapist in Montpelier, was helpful though I didn’t have a lot to say. Somehow I got onto the belief that not doing something was equivalent to not caring. I think this is part of what gets me in … Continue reading →

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What Depression Does for Me

Posted on October 21, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Woke at 5:41 terrified. Tried to bring compassion to my fear. No softening, all is meaningless. No sense of contact with the spirit realm. Last night at NVC check-in I talked about my despair. I said … Continue reading →

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“Should” and Compassion

Posted on October 17, 2010 by jenny

Reading from my journal from June 2010 I see how I create misery for myself by a convoluted and distorted thinking process, and my inability to trust my own goodness. My heart just went out to me, lots of compassion … Continue reading →

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Affirmations

Posted on October 9, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2010) Barbara suggested I write a set of affirmations and go through them every day. I realize that I always think of affirmations as being for the purpose of changing something, but they could also be true … Continue reading →

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