(Written in June 2008)
Obama got the nomination! I’ve put my homemade colorful Obama sign at the end of my driveway.
Last night’s dance program celebrated Africa and African-Americans. Spirit of the Great Heart, Eyes that Speak, We Shall Overcome. Then we did my Nia choreography to “Bound for Freedom”. They liked it, tho not everyone tried it. — Swimming to the Other Side & Standing Stones. Healing Waters. A good group of people. I felt really good — “on”, confident, flexible, joyous. That’s what I got from the Nia training. The Warrior in me is fully awake and functioning. Yes. I am a Shambhala Warrior.
It’s hard to believe how good and positive I’m feeling. Despite the pains in my back and ribs — I can see that’s getting better, but it’s not all gone by any means. I guess it was the moment when I was worrying about money & gas prices, seeing the future close in — and I got angry, decided I wasn’t going to go there, and created a vision of the world I want to see. I’m holding that vision — or maybe it’s holding me, because there’s no effort at all — I don’t feel like I have to do it all myself, I don’t feel like I have to convince other people, I just hold my banner high and teach “We shall Overcome” and “Bound for Freedom”. Another piece is the Martha Beck book with its stories of Magic and Miracles. This brought back what I learned in DMA and for the first time I think I’ve really got it.
Just threw away a whole lot of charitable bids from the last few months. Good for me! I’m saying no. The Warrior in me is so much stronger! I’m reading a new book by Martha Beck “Steering by Starlight” and she talks about the importance of feeling what you would feel if you got that thing you want so badly. I always found that the hardest part of DMA — how could I feel how I would feel if I got real solid approval and support? I had no way to know. I think how I felt when I got Elizabeth’s letter praising my vision commitment and generosity. That deep sense of satisfaction. That sense of success: I’ve done it! I’ve become the person I want to be. I don’t need to keep striving. So that’s the feeling I want to have and to be living my life out of it.
What else do I want? World peace and ecological sanity. What would that feel like? The morning I stood in the kitchen at Findhorn and felt my whole self relax because I was in a community that took care of the Earth.
“Bound for Freedom” is a song written by Pat Humphries and sung by Magpie on their CD Give Light. The chorus is:
Here I go bound for freedom, let my truth take the lead
Not the preacher, not the congress, not the millionaire, but me
I will organize for justice. I will raise my voice in song.
And our children will be free to lead the world and carry on.
DMA is a course in creating your life developed by Robert Fritz, now called Technologies for Creating.